Welcome to my life

2009-08-27T00:15:00.000-07:00

hey,so...
ermmm,..
life's great n difficult at e same time.how shud i say this?
anw,i noe i cnt like him...(duh,that's y i dun like him)-.-...so yeah,hope *U* cn understand me...no feelings at all.-.-not my type

PLUS!i was watching this MV...suddenly...Mr.hot guitarist got stabbed.n he sacrificed his life(n his precious face)for this girl.so sad.
n i got so mad...how cud any1 stab such a handsome guy???

anw,just a MV!!!

if it happens in real life...i dunno wat ill do.probably kill e killer.LOL!

''i don't care''

2009-08-19T05:09:00.000-07:00

Damn...
hv u seen GD's mv?
E guy is so hot being blonde.
Gosh e hair...his face....n everythg.

He made my day ...n that song has great meaning.
N his rap is....ama--zzzingGG!

*he's rapis lyk e guy 'alone'(*?*)i dunno his name.
well,for those hu know wat im talking bout.
E GUY(NT GD) can rap 17 words within 3secs?i tink....i ONLY noe he's fast.n he wears eyeliner.-.-

2009-08-19T02:09:00.000-07:00

It's hard..
MOVE ON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!AAAAAAAAHHHH!

im going to force myself to go to another chapter of my life.im just gonna skip this n let it b.
Act lyk nth happened.

2009-08-14T01:56:00.000-07:00

MUAHAHha!!!im back!with coloured fonts..!
hmmm,Im in love with that lead guitarist!Sexyy!!!:)
sorry.i cnt stand his hotness!

hmmm,told my mom e thgs i want
n i told her to compare her spendings between me n bro!
she always givs him money to buy those expensive clothes.
n me?
hahaha....sumtimes.
hmmm,i guess my brother knows how to irritate mom!

the thgs i wnt:
new watch
e t-shirt!
magazine
foundation
thinning scissors
yeah,that's about it.
a new cap!LOL!i love caps/hats!love wearing them!dunno y!must hv sumthg on head when it's hot.ltr my skin wil b black!
currently watching tutorials online!

hmmm,doing well in sch
changed sci tcher.a better one.
but,a bit scary!

U GOT E FIRE THAT MAKES MY HEART GO BOOM BOOM BOOM!
come in3!into another new world!
LOLLIPOP!

it's sad

2009-08-13T05:26:00.000-07:00

hey...so,my blog sux...
OOPS!OUCH!TERRIBLE!
i cnt change e size,colors,upload pics...so,basically,i nid to change blog n delete this rusty one.
NDP...was...no feeling.
ermm,will miss all those army guys!!!
they r fun to b with!VERY GOOFY!GOOFIEEE GUYS R E BEST!..
all my favourite grps r promoting their album in japan!IT's SAD!SAD!!!!

just now,nat nvr cum...
then,miraah n nabilah bullied me...
oh gosh!
u noe wat happened?
during MT...miraah wanted to cubit my chicks!
i moved my head..
then,'PHAaanng!' my head hit e window grill thgy hard...
then,my ear felt freaking hot...
n nabilah go make my hand numb!i did it bck to her
but she's too solid for me!!!
seriously,she's lyk one metal women..
i cn c words written on her forehead
'u touch me,u die...i press ur hand!MUAHHAHAHAHAHA!'
it's sad..
this is life without my bodyguard natasha...
hahahha...no lah...
we're all frenz.
i hurt them too....physically...
smack their backs!!!!!!!
anw,then saw nat outside sch..
i told on them
then she beat them up...MUAHAHAHAHA!!!!e shortest among all wins!!!!
i felt sleepy e whole day actually..
lyk,my eyes cudnt open.
oni when my head hit e window my eyes were filled with lights..
ermm,yeah...wide awake!
hmmm,then,e other periods i was about to die..
n e tcher said i looked pale..
n i was lyk 'ouh...ahhh...'

well,that's bout it.Bye2!see u ltr!KAJA!!!Let's go!

2009-08-09T22:56:00.000-07:00

'because of this stupid thg called pride,i break down everyday

....this stupid thg called vanity,told me to wait everyday'

i keep replaying back bad memories in my head.
sumtimes,it just plays by itself.
questions that i dun hv annswers to r asked.

i know that im seriously confused.(it's a mixture of thoughts that randomly cums into my mind)
i dunno.e feeling when u just think too much until u feel lyk there's too many thgs on ur mind..n those,numb,empty,headache-ish feeling.

i tried to relax..
but when i do...
ppl disturb me..
n..

wat r u trying to do?
control me?
dun tell me to go here go there.
u hv legs,u hv hands..so just do it.
im freakin serious.

i wont b kind.even if anyone givs me e sad,angry or pissed off or wtv expression.
i wont listen to anyone.
i wont force myself to smile or talk to u when i dun hv e mood too.
wat's e point?
i dun hv to talk to anyone when i dun hv time too...
other ppl do that too.
so,yeah.wtv.

if u cn show ur attitude,i cn show mine too':)

2009-08-06T06:33:00.000-07:00

life's been great ever since dad stepped in e situation.
ermm,yeah.

so,lyk...seriously,i dun care if u hv frenz that r guys or wateva.just back off.
u hv ur life.ive gt my life.
u dun step into my life.
fine,u dun lyk me.ignore me.
bcoz i dun even bother about wanting to lyk u or hate u.
just....get e hell out of my life.yes,u r in fact e hell in my life.so get out.
pls n thnk u.

u say im this n that.
u started e fight?
not me...
wat my sister asked u to do was e srvey
that's it.
u were rude to her
she scolded u
i had nth to do with it
u hv no rite to say im this n that.
then,wat r u?
u smoke,u drink,u r with those malay guys n many more...
so,u answer that question.
im none of these.

*pics r with miraah.

Tired.

2009-07-28T07:42:00.000-07:00

Hey guys....
im tired...
i feel horrible...
ugh...my life is lyk goin in different directions until i dunno which direction i want to follow or which/who i want to trust..

(Stop calling n forcing me to do stuff)

- is not talking to me anymore(im sorry,but u cnt help)

yeah,it's true..
my life has worsen til i cnt speak anymore..
talk about wat?

all this while,ive been too cncern about wat to do now...

having a hard time with -
cnt get thru...
meanest thg said-'u cn just shut up n keep pretending.i wont talk to u anymore.'

Arghh!

Again & Again...
i tried to forget u but y do i keep cuming bck AGAIN & AGAIN

i guess,i just hv to let go n make it official...

i want to hv a free-living life...Ha!no such thg...
hmmm,i guess,starting from today..
ill bhvave lyk my OLDself..
bcoz,ive gt no mood to play around anymore..
it's all fake
plus,i get offended sumtimes....

People sumtimes dun hv kind hearts...
wat to do?

....wondering hu i shud go to...
no one else left...
ill just hv these tots by myself..
ppl around me dun nid to noe...
they've gt their own life...
i shall hv mine too..

so,stop wat ure doin..coz ure gonna get hurt...
but i noeu hv ur frenz as back up to hurt me...
i cn take it...

2009-07-22T02:49:00.000-07:00

hey,hello..
im tired rite now..
dinner again last night....
with father's fren...
Not all rich ppl r show offiiieess!!!
im serious...
n rich ppl hu r malays dont salam,they shake hands....
i didnt noe that.LOL!
usually,they arent malays!anw,cnt post pics!i dunno wat's wrong!!!!><
he said e 3rd child is always different from e first two!.....xplains everythg...

hmmm,wat else?met janani!hehe!
done

2009-07-20T02:14:00.001-07:00

hmmm...im tired....
i studied for e science test lyk crazy...
Last Fri..was great..(:
im so happy!i dunno y!!!!but im just happy!!!!hehe!!!<3<3<3!!!!!!!!!!!!
but i missed studying with frenz..

~....e deal we made....i hope u keep it..
i lyk it better lyk this.im not that ready...<3~* **** *,* **** u....(: (:

so,yest...celebrated bro's Blated Bdae...
had to wish him happry bdae...but i ended up just high-fying him

ill post pics soon...not now...comp so weird...

2009-07-16T01:23:00.000-07:00

i just wanna say...i didnt intend to join NDP...u forced us...therefore,u cnt anyhow scold us...at least we came.

[...for one term...-.-...thx for making me feel better by sending sumone who keeps saying 'uuhh' n who is probably gay.] -only my class will understand

2009-07-09T04:48:00.000-07:00

Why????
Im beated n Im tired...
All of these...why wont it just go away??
ive got no mood..
ALL OF THEM...THE PEOPLE AROUND ME...THEY R MAKING ME ...TIRED.
I can't tink straight
It's freakin irritating...

Why do ppl need to be so........

WHY?y do ppl nid to get hurt?

I dun want tmrw to come...
i dun want the day after tomorrow to cum..
i dun wan any day to cum?
Noe y?
coz im not ready...

That day....i cudnt take it anymore...
Until everythg inside.it came out.
it's not lyk i wanted them to.it just did.

ugh!i dun wanna talk about it anymore...
it's totally bothering me..

[the darkness hides within e cheerful smile...
others rebelling...
some obeying...
which route shud i go?
if i choose to b me....
ppl around me wud get hurt n hate me.
sometimes,one cant control it n bcums iritated easily...
..start hurting one's frenz...when one didnt mean it....one feels uncomfortable around them
one doesnt noe wat to do but to at least act as if nothing's wrong...]

2009-07-06T02:10:00.000-07:00

Hmmm...??
went out today..
had lunch with sis n mom..
ermm,at seoul garden..
Im tired.-.-
Homework not done
wat else?nth more.
i get moody these days(mayb coz of e weather)

Random.
who do i look up to?
Miley n Bom

hate?
If i see,i dun lyk,then i dont lyk.(It's rare....two-faced chicks/guys.most probably.)
ppl hu cnt keep their mouths shut.
when ppl i trust giv my no. to other ppl.(it's pathetic.betraying others.ive nvr done this to any of my frenz.cnt blieve some do that to me.Im curious...is it bcoz they want ppl to think that they hv many frenz??truly disgusts me)

what kind of vegetable do u dislike?
onions.r onions veggies?

guys i dislike?
gatal guys.those 'i nk kenal2 ngn u booleh?'
uhh,pls...go away.(dad found out bout this.)

wat CANT u do?
swim.hehe.i oni noe how to float.lol

afraid of?
thgs that move by itself.n cockroaches.big dogs.

2009-07-03T00:40:00.000-07:00

hey.
im tired.
my leg n feet n everythg is hurting lyk crazy.
just now in sch both of my feet started bleeding.i cudnt walk properly.
luckily gt plaster from miraah~
not letting us eat in canteen.Food they gave us.one word...horrible.(thx alot H1N1)
i feel lyk a sheep.from 10 to 10.30 i turn into a sheep.eating green stuff.
Iffah ran 2.4...AND PASSED!!!
im tired.too tired.mayb goin out on monday.

~Let It Go...~

2009-07-02T05:11:00.000-07:00

Ill post more...not now.im too bz.hahhaha

MJ(im not his fan.i was more into other artists.)
but i saw this on MTV n ...WOAH...~hahaha...
ive seen ppl do moonwalk....but his is lyk...WOW.

RIP

2009-06-25T05:05:00.000-07:00

Love this song!

Miley's so hot....

im tired.muahahahaha!
went out today...anythg read miraah n yaya's blog...
im lazy to blog.
iffah text me saying FT ISLAND arriving tonight!HAIYO!!!!!!
i want to c how white they r...haha
n ss501 doing asia tour thg...
im not their fan...hahaha

2009-06-23T07:39:00.000-07:00

Im too tired to blog..
went out 3 times...
when i wanted to sleep,teacher called..
so,i only slept for 10minutes..
i woke up at 8.40am(morning)....im dead.

i gt a haircut today...trim..
n i bought two more hair products(mum's mad)
Im buying one more..
All these to avoid split ends.coz e heat is causing so many split ends...trim them today!yay!no more split ends!

yes,i do not lyk trusting others.
Yes,i do not lyk it when ppl i dun really noe touch me..

I get pissed with myself.
Not at other ppl. Coz im too weak.
Nvm,i cn stand it. Wait til They reach e limit.

5 thgs that gross me out
1)Bugs
2)when i see sum1 vomit
3)My sister's bantal bucuk
4)seriously dirty toilets
5)Those Bangla workers that get drunk at my voideck

2009-06-22T04:25:00.000-07:00

BE PREPARED FOR SOME RANDOMNESS(LOL!!!)
IM JUST POSTIMG THIS COZ IM BORED...I NOE IT'S RANDOM.SO,IT'S BETTER IF U SKIP THIS.

hey!so,was bored.
i watched this random-but-awesome movie online
Wow!e movie was AMAZING!
haha,it's at first,i tot e movie was kinda gross...
haha...it was lyk ...this married women(seriously pretty) met a guy at a plc...blablablaskipskipskip...was trapped,they had to hide.but then,they made out(i noe.gross rite?lyk,first time meeting n make out.must b some vibe thg)
haha..i prefer this than City Hall(e Drama im currently watching)
Both r love stories...
except that,City Hall it's about Mayor,civil servants n stuff...which is y i dun tink my frenz wud watch it.My sis was e one hu told me to watch City Hall.N city hall makes u feel embarrassed for e actress.it's really hilarious.
but i seriously doubt ppl my age wud watch it.haha.in real life,e guy is 40 n e girl is 33.But e guy is charming..hehe.*nose bleed*
I dun lyk it when e actress embarrass herself..it makes me want to run away from e comp screen.it's just really embarrassing n funny.

E movie im currently watching now...is called The Naked Kitchen.A very weird start but kinda sweet..as e story goes on..ull start LOVING IT.plus,e characters r young.N it' really more to relationship/love/making out(?) kinda stuff....my kind of show.

So,if u finished reading e unimportant n totally random thgs i wrote.u must really noe how bored i m...
haha

omona!~

2009-06-21T02:15:00.000-07:00

okok..so,i tried curling my hair..it bcame wavy after 5 minutes..-.-

hey...
so,on fri...went to bedok lib..started on HW
n im till tired.
haha..saw a lot of familiar faces..
ermm,cnt remember wat i did..
i noe...i went home..(lol..duhhhh)
erm,,Sat..
NDP training crap..
went to sch at 8AM n went home at 11PM
n i told dad to fetch me..
e heat at marina bay was freakin hot..
i gt seriously mad...
n i shouted sumthg
n Nat was lyk,'omg...that's e first time im seeing u lyk this'
okok,so..my hair started to dry up..
my skin was tanned
i do nt lyk hot places
n dad told me to lyk,dont b afraid of any1,especially e instructor if theey scold me
bcoz lyk,we didnt sign up for this THG n therefore...it's nt right for them to shout at us..
yesterday when e instructor started to scream at e students,i was lyk
'OI!LYK,excuse me ah...we didnt sign up or wanted to do this...n y r u scolding us lyk that?it's gd enough we came ..'
rite?lyk,wtv ah...u want to scold us go ahead..
HEAT EVERYWHR....omg...
my dad was lyk telling me to lyk nt dance properly...

my dad says it's exactly lyk if ure in a department(work plc)
n other ppl r lyk more higher than u,ull get bullied easily...
bcoz if they r e manager or anythg..they cn fire us easily..
lyk,others r afraid of them

plus,i tot sch is about learning,to study?
n apparently for me...this yr..is kinda weird
n it's lyk streaming this yr...

dad also said ...i must learn to face e good stuff n bad stuff...
all e heat n everythg ...

u noe...whenever i reach there...
i get frustrated n mad easily...
it's really diff n i cnt wait to for this to end..im serious.it's just making me more.....

so,anw...ermm,yesterday i was watching e drama 'City Hall' with my sister till 2am.my sister told me to wath it..n i dun tink my frenz would b interested in e story.haha.

ermmm,so ...im gonna watch that story now...hahaahhaa
...

Stand Up

2009-06-18T05:55:00.001-07:00

hey... so,i was having dinner..
then,dad warned me about 'playboy website'
n i was lyk 'tu untok lelaki lah!*shivers!*
then, my dad ask my bro..
i dun tink he watches those..
plus,im still pure... i was nvr interested in those stuff..
my frenz watched those already n i was lyk 'wat?it's just F-ing sum1.wat for watch.so,lyk,wat for u watch crap?rather u do it than watch others do it.'*smiles innocently*
lol.no,i didnt say this out loud.
n then,dad went on about exam results..
saying that im too stuck to e comp(well,i noe.im trying to prevent my hands frm grabbing e comp everytime i wake up)
im gonna set all my worksheets in plc..
n c what wud happen!haha ermm,e poem project thg is making me stressed out.
i hate being e leader.(wtv.but i noe...if i hv to b rude..ill b rude..then ill apologize.hahaha)
So,sat im meeting them..hopefully they come..if no,Then..BuH-bye!
I hate hate hate..im nvr going to b leader again.TRUST ME ON THIS.i dun noe how to lead. i get really pissed when i dun get thgs done n when ppl count on me...i hate it when ppl count on me...
Thx to:miraah for re-writing our poems
:iffah for giving in effort on decorating e cover
n yes,ill b doin e content pg tmrw im gonna msg ppl to write a personal response
n im gonna do e 3 maths ws
do eng compo
study for eng test(coming up Monday)
im gonna do geog when i get e ppr
well,i didnt even start on HW actually
only e ones on lead.com r done
i dun even noe whr i put my pencil box but,Tmrw... ill gonna force myself to go down n buy colored ppr errmm,
write a personal response
Do e three sets of maths ppr
Find out wat other HW's i hv
MISSION starts Tmrw!

~HOT Issue!

2009-06-17T05:09:00.000-07:00

i swear i wasnt even wearing eyeliner!haha!i just squinted my eyes real tight!

i was bored.-.-

these r e thgs that cnt b plced elsewhr

Ive gone mad!!!

hey!so,i had a hard time today..

i got pissed n was rude to Iffah...(yes,ive apologised!)

n then,i gt rude again(??)

haha..

So,i was bored again..

Oh yeah,they'll b NDP training on sat..

Oh yeah!Lady Gaga is in korea.

im not a huge fane of hers

coz,i dunno.
but i do tink she's fierce!haha...fierce ppl...

So,ive been listening to this song called 'HOT ISSUE'
then,i started to ..listen to it again n again n again...
im addicted to e beat.n e song.

2009-06-16T21:59:00.000-07:00

hey guys!
So,i woke up ...

No one was at home..
great..so i went to search for tons of...good stuff!

i watched vids on fashion,hair n eye makeup(this time it's japanese makeup on how to make ur eyes look bigger)they use lyk those eye shimmers..ive seen those at e shopper's blog which cost ...lyk $1.50??im nt sure.
im totally getting myself one.
N I GOT MY FACE MASK!for whiter skin..
i LOVE to c wat ppl put up on their youtube bout these eye stuff..
sumtimes they use foundation...i dun want to start using those coz i tink im too young
or those BB cream..coz i dun really hv much zits!
but hey!those of u hu tink u hv zits..u hv to get BB cream at watsons or whereva..
coz BB creams r really popular!that's wat i heard.n it works well!

So,while watching cl2425's youtube vid..she was talking about magibon(??)so i checked her out..
i honestly tink she's cute staring at e screean lyk that.haha
wit big eyes!
so,yeah..u cn watch e vid...
there r other vids on her.but i dun wan to waste time watching e girl stare at e comp.haha.

2009-06-16T04:18:00.000-07:00

IFFAH!i tried my best to do Dara's hair!so,that's e best i cn do!i noe2..it's suppose to b lyk coconut/palm tree kinda..thg(?)lol..so,ill try harder!

HEHE

haha

e unsuccessful curly hair

Hey..
Got some new stuff today
ermm,went to bugis to eat..
went to bedok inter..
bought stuffiezz
n will b goin there again coz i saw sumthg i want(haha)
then,went bck home
watched SE n PIS
...luckily i didnt miss e show!
went home..
So,ive uploaded some pics..
n i curled my hair(well,i tried..but it didnt really turn out...curly(??))
hahax!im so tired.
appeared offline..there's only 1 person hu knows im actually online..n alive
So,anw...nothing much actually..im just typing stuff to fill up my boring blog...
ok,BOOM!
My eyes are filled with shining stars
Even the light burning in my heart
Won't be forever, there's nothing to lose

2009-06-15T05:25:00.000-07:00

HeLLo...
Today...went out to eat..crab
So,then..i heard shocking news...
haha..
So,im getting easily pissed
Zul(sec 3) i dunno hu u r
but how dare u gv my no. to a freakin disgusting mat!
i dun date ppl lyk him!
so,this 17 yr old guy called me..
n freakin said 'i single ah..tu psl i call u...haha(stupid kind of laughter btw)..u ckp psl topic ah..i boring ah...'
n when i asked him ' KAU skola kt mane?'(shocking,huh?yea,i spoke in malay.only coz i was pissed'
'i tk skola'-jerko way
..n he was chatting all e way..
lyk cum on ah..it's pretty obvy that ure some mat trying to use a girl..
CALLING A RANDOM GIRL?????
n i had to find e right time to hang up..
soon,i hung up on him...
n i gt a text saying
....*blablabla*
i nvr replied...
y shud i ??
eeeeeeww..
so,zul..if ure reading my blog..
Ill b staring at u lyk i wanna eat every bit of of u up.(when i find out hu u r)
IVE HAD ENOUGH OF THIS 'NO. PASSING'
CRAP!
this is y i hate typical malay boys!those mats!
GATAL!aaahhh..i really want to change my no.!
some frenz really cnnt b trusted!
i shud really change my no.

''syifa,don't give in to peer pressure''
i stinkin hate peer pressure n trust me
ive avoided them lyk thousands of times

''syifa,love is in the air...u juz hv to wait for it to come to u''
i noe...
but for now,it just passes by me...

''syifa,u hv to change ..for the better''
im trying to...cnt u tell?

''syifa,i tink e reason y u dun trust ppl is bcoz ure scared n that u dun trust urself'''
u dunno me...

Don't come back
To Act As If Nothing's Wrong
I don't think i can put up a smile anymore..it's all fake..

2009-06-14T21:38:00.000-07:00

I HAVE TO LEARN TO LET GO.

2009-06-12T20:28:00.001-07:00

~THANKS IFFAH UNNI~!!!

currently watching 'them'!
woke up at 7am today..
Tried to sleep again but cudnt
ever since he left i cnt sleep early too
~mum too....

***switched on e lights....u weren't there***
***so,i opened e window n looked down to check whether ure safe***

iffah unni helped me edit a pic!

today was kinda embarrassing actually
i was eating..not paying attention ,just staring at e comp..
Suddenly...i poured soup all over e table...
when i saw i was lyk "OH SHIT!"
then,i gt scolded.haha
"tu lah!mkn tk tau tgk btol2!buat bende tk senonoh"
n i was lyk,,,"uhh..HAHAHAHA~"
haiyo...

2009-06-12T03:36:00.000-07:00

CHOMEL!!!!!bdae gift!

yupp,i love them those necklaces!

MY BED

hmm,my clothes!

I DID IT!!!!!!!HAHAHA!
i Cleared up every single rubbish in my room(books nt yet though!ughh..)
while i was cleaning i gt headache!haha!hvnt done anythg like this for months!that's y.
Switched on aircon coz it was damn hot.
errmm,so i arranged my clothes properly
wiped e fan(for e first time...-.-)
wiped everythg
arranged some stuffieezz...
So,c e pics!
im so happy!!!

2009-06-11T04:33:00.000-07:00

hey..
im tired...of?staring at e comp..
im lyk stuck to it!
OMGee~!
my dad checked each of our rooms n..hahaha!
i hv to clean up my room tmrw!
or shud i start now?
hmm,c first!
He's gonna take away my laptop if i dun listen!
Gosh...haha
Iffah told me to watch her shinee on youtube.
so,i watched.i didnt actually lyk that grp at first.
but they're ok.haha!

Ok,gonna clean my room!
GOSH!CNT BELIEVE I HV TO SEPARATE ALL OF MY CLOTHES...AGAIN!
n my books r everywhr
i tink ill start throwing some away!..again...
n if i start cleaning up...ill get really moodieee!dunno y!haha...Dont lyk it when ppl tok to me when im working

N i dun lyk seeing my clothes all CROOKIEEE...(wth,but,u understand)
im totally gonna iron every1 one of them..
errrmmm,,e weather is really HOT nowadays..
aaaahhhh....Mum doesnt allow me to switch on e aircon now
only at night.W.T.H
So Hot!

~BOOM!Drop it lyk it's hot!

2009-06-10T19:15:00.000-07:00

yesterday,sister gt home frm her trip
ermm,she bought for me necklace
ermm,heard what happened
at night,Dad n Bro(n some of his frenz)
went down to .....
C!everybody loves Tamby!haha...
I shall keep only e gd memories..
Sis showed me pics from her trip!
HAIYOYOYO!im so jealous!
so,that's it.Goodbye.^^
~*Boom Boom Boom*~^^

2009-06-09T23:57:00.000-07:00

few hours b4 u left....(look at how skinny uve bcum!)

WHY????y do u hv to leave now????
nt being able to c u again hurts lyk shit!
i cnt stop e tears frm running down!

10/06/09...(hitam...Tamby!)
ill always remember this day!

im sorry for all e sufferings!for how i treated u recently...seeing u going lyk that!

It's been in the past for awhile
I get a flash and I smile
Am I crazy?
Still miss you baby

It was real, It was right
But I burned to hot to survive
All that's left is
all these ashes

Where does the love go'
I don't know
When it's all said and done
How could I be losing you forever?
After all the time we spent together?
I had to know why, I
had to lose you
Now you'll just become
Like everything I'll never find, again
At the Bottom of the ocean

In a dream you appear
for awhile you were here
So I keep sleeping
just to keep you with me

I draw a map,connect the dots
with all the memories that i got
what I'm missing
I'll keep reliving

This is it
let go
Breathe

You don't have to love me for me
oh baby ever understand
Just know I love the time that we both had
and I don't ever wanna se you sad
be happy
I don't wanna hold you
if you don't wanna tell me you love me babe
just know I'm gonna have to walk away
I'll be big enough for both of us to say
be happy

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye

Don't look back and leave
Don't find me again and live (on)
Because I have no regrets from loving you, take only the good memories
I can bear it in some way
I can stand in some way
You should be happy if you are like this
I become dull day by day

I hope your heart fees relieved
Please forget about me and live (on)
Those tears will dry completely
As time passes by

ill miss u !!!!

i begged mom not to put u to sleep...BUT HV TO!!!!

juz noe that no matter what..ill miss u,love u,tink of u...n im sorry
silence was all that u left...

2009-06-09T21:22:00.000-07:00

hey...edited pics with miraah
anw,haha...stil wit e makeup vids!
anw,my cat is sick n im worried!haiyo!!!!!
im scared!i dun wan to lose him!for 7yrs...dun leave us now...
ookk...
so was bored...went online...google3!found weird stuffiez
im so bored....................
how do i entertain myself?
hmm,family members on at home
Mom-send cat to e vet
Sister-went holiday wit frenz
Dad-working
Bro-gym

i cnt go out...no more money!
haiyo!

2009-06-09T03:23:00.000-07:00

*Bbang!*

hahaha...

*miraah & syifaa*

*yes,sir!*^^

yes,i m jealous of her eyes!hahaha...

rock on?gosh,im so lame!:)lol(iffaah n syifaa)

So,went to changi airport..with MY Iffah Unni(hahaha) n Miraah Unni!(accordingly,iffah's oldest..then miraah!LOL!)
went there to do out project..
after writing e script,copying everythg n decorating at starbucks
we went to terminal 3 n took HUNDREDS of pics
yeah,im tired rite now..
had to select which pics to put up..coz there were too many!
haha!
anw,was walking home
my leg suddenly felt lyk it was gonna split into 2.
i dunno y..
then,it stopped hurting.
THEN!222 drove pass me..
yup,e ping yi's were in there
n i quickly turned the other way n tried to hide myself
1 already saw me..
n was lyk 'SYIFA'lyk mouthing at me
i was lyk 'OH SHIT!'
but i dunno,he turned to his fren
n i walked e other way,hiding.
haha...
So went home..laptop..
haha..found out somethg shocking online..
i wanna meet my frenz n do HW together.
Hope they r free..(:
btw!i m so lovin all these make-up(for eye!) tutorials online!youtube!

2009-06-08T01:19:00.000-07:00

im already starting to feel e pressure
a few more months..
i need to satisfy my parents...
only hard work cn produce good results
Dad reminded me yesterday..
How? see,i hate holidays bcoz i noe i wont study.
.n when i dun study,it wont feel rite..
here's what i HOPE i cn do..
im gonna study frm 12pm to 2pm
n e rest i cn do wtv i want i shud start reading those books again
muz go through the thgs ive studied for e past 5 mnths..
ill try doing this...
thg is,how do i get away from this laptop????aaahhh!
cannot 4get everythg when i cum bck to sch
i know how to relief e stress but how towork hard when i cn only relief stress by watching crap on comp???(u might not understand this sentence..but i do.)

i muz remember wat my parents gv me...

yeah,im a gd girl..
so wat?haha
education first u noe!

2009-06-06T20:24:00.000-07:00

anw...chalet was alrite last night
chat2 wit Eva at swimming pool
cudnt stand e heat
i went home at 2am..
blablabla....collapsed on my wonderful bed.

;it's better to smile than to talk...i prefer smiling...

Hey,i noe u said ive changed
im really sorry..
it's juz that i get easily pissed nowadys
it was easy to calm down last time
now it's a bit hard
plus,i dun trust any1 anymore
a few..those few..whom i am trusting rite now
they r e ones that cn understand me...
yeah,ive changed...im more...i get upset easily
n i dun talk to u guys anymore....blablabla!
(hahha..sumtimes,i seriously hv nth to talk about!)
but hey,talk to me...ill reply!
n to u,ill b more lyk e Old syifaa..
e one who was always calm when anythg happens.(haha)

2009-06-06T04:02:00.001-07:00

today was tiring...n it's gonna b more tiring
chalet...haiz!
shud hv listened to dad!he told me nt to cum!
so tired.i cnt move!i hvnt pack!
promised to call iffah
as today is our last time to chat!
haha...will miss them!
three days without all of them sucks!no calling!
haiyoyoyo!
anw,went home...was tired
suddenly when i gt off e bus...222
i juz realized that those ping yi guys were waving at me!
i know them..i dun even noe how they found out my name!
anw,my expression was lyk '-.^*wth...crazy boys*'
hahaha...they're ridiculous!
so,i gtg!
bye!
i dunno whr i put my mirror!AAAHHHH!

2009-06-05T05:49:00.000-07:00

took a test on facebook
omg...here is wat im lyk!
What does ur bdae say about u?
ans:
Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves sports, leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.
anyone(frenz)!i nid ur opinion too!m i lyk that?haha
i oni noe i lyk to criticize ur crushes!haha!im lyk that!sorry!anw,u cn comment on guys i lyk too!IF i actually lyk sum1 now..
tag me!:)

ive made my mind

2009-06-04T20:14:00.000-07:00

hey,currently watching an awesome concert online... about GLOBAL WARNING
i shud really start to b considerate bout this global thgy...
yup,im going green!
haha...try nt to litter anymore
ok,ive made up my mind
i shall nvr attempt to hv another relationship
until i feel that it's rite!
coz im sick of wat ive been doin!
im sick of wasting my money(my phone bill)
yes,sicksicksick of it!! hahaha...yeah...
at my age,i dun nid a relationship to satisfy myself
it's worth nothing

craving them!

2009-06-04T17:32:00.000-07:00

her hp

hey!
my sister gt a hp!
n im so jealous!
i want a new 1 too!
hers is W380(which is like e lollipop phone!!!)
but nvm, I WANT A lollipop phone!
e coolest hp ever!!!!
im nt sure whether they already started selling em'
but my sis said ya,but out of stock!DAMN!
anw,my sis let me try e phone...
it's juz lyk a normal phone
juz that it's damn striking!
i LOVE!
hahaha....
lol..when i flip open e phone
e 1st thg i sw was ' ' ' ' ...haiz!
ppl cn get addicted to those!

...

2009-06-04T04:33:00.000-07:00

Today,
went to Vivo to watch Hannah Montana The Movie
with iffah Jjang!n Miraah Yoyoyo!
after lunch at BK(b4 movie)
We took pics at e roof...
Awesome...water2!step in!weee!
Iffah lost Titi again...titi-hair clip
erm,,After that saw this irritating Couple..
red hair n Gf..they were EVREYWHR..
im serious!
They even sat bhind us during e movie!
Miraah n i were lyk '0.O'staring...
anw...erm,the movie was awesome!!!!
i laugh,cried!every emotion i hv..it all came out!
OMG!damn,e guy's HOT!
i was kinda Unsatisfied...i want some more!
y so short???
i was crying ..Miraah was crying!iffah didnt!

after that went Bugis!
WOOOOOO!!!!
OMG!guess wat?
we 3 gt hyped up by SUM THGS!
Lyk seriously!
i bought a 'mirror',miraah bought 1 too!
Now,we 3 hv e same thg!
ahaha,how cute!
im so happy!
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yesterday was sister's bdae
i didnt noe..didnt speak to her for days!
erm,,went to restaurant for dinner(lyk always)
psshh!
wished her happy bdae by sms
saying 'happy bdae.tkle ckp.malu:)'
ya...her frenz came by at night to giv her HANDPHONE!!!
she gt ' ' stockings sum more!
nvm!
haha...

........................................................................
mum says i hv to earn money myself to go bowling..SAD!
but ill do it...
it's easy...i juz hv to work at home to get paid!

-wash dishes
-bath e cats
-clean e house while mum takes care of haidil
-fold clothes
-n anythg that i dun usually do!
8D
well,wish me luck with e household chores!

-NDP
-chalet
-bowling wit Bryan n frenz!

XOXO!
hugs n kisses!
byebye!
btw,girls...http://www.fancypocket.sg/

omgee

2009-06-03T01:41:00.000-07:00

OMGee!
i was totally getting bck to english music...
when i listened to e jobros song 'infatuation'
GOT JAPaNese WORDS IN IT!
OH GOsH!
nvm,im juz shocked.
how long was i entertained wit Korea/Japanese music?
r my ears alrite??
n no,it doesnt mean i like JoBros
im sick of looking at their faces!
but i do tink they hv talent!
so,dun hate me JB fans.

2009-06-02T20:57:00.000-07:00

such an innocent face

currently listening to music... chatting wit Miraah on e phone wit Iffah tmrw goin Vivo n Bugis gonna watch Hannah Montana Movie with them at Vivo..

4June-movie n shopping(Miraah!Iffah!)
sat..NDP(if im well)after NDP straight away muz go chalet wit cuzzies

nex sat bowling wit Bryan n frenz!

i hv to work at home(yes,at home) to get money! bcoz ive already spent lots of money til my parents wud oni giv me $20 on every outing i go! ahh!so unfair.. mum says im out of control(lol..im nt....) .................................................................................................................. so recently,im inspired by girls that cn rap ! n ppl wit great voices... they r alot of talented ppl in korea..im serious!

megalodon

2009-06-02T19:28:00.000-07:00

hey..
im currently searching on megalodon(huge shark that lived with e dino's million yrs ago)
Do u know that 95% of the earth/sea(im nt sure) is left unexplored?
gosh,wat if these thgs still exist?
scientists believe they still exist!
i dunno..
e reason y im afraid of e sea is bcoz of sharks.haha...plus,i dun wanna get my skin dark!

man,i dunno y im interested in this!i was so bored that i wud go to e extend of sharks

syifa ohh syifa....

koreans r getting to me..
ever since e BOF show
but,im still all for miley!hahaha

crazy

2009-06-02T07:10:00.000-07:00

maybe our separation was meant to be
im happy now that you're gone
ill always remember you somehow
but i know it's better than to forget u
xoxo

hey.. e stuffiez ive been wanting to buy:

new shades
pink coloured skinnies(???LOL)
new tees
mascara
eyeliner
new hoodie
those large shirts(i dunno.i lyk those...very spacey!)
vest
eye shadow
i keep thinking of that hand stuff(???)i saw at bugis...sorry.dunno e name
new sneakers
that EXPENSIVE black jacket i saw in Vivo(probably nt gonna get it..but i cn still dream bout it;$169)

face mask(i wan a frsh n WHITE face!

im bored

2009-06-01T23:00:00.000-07:00

i was bored

hey...im lyk damn bored... currently chatting wit Iffah we're both bored Iffah says:My feet r white,my legs r black!bcoz of e NDP LOL! so,i took pics juz now.. wearing my 'im nt short.im juz fun size' unfortunately,my hair cudnt b curled today! tried n tried!but still so straight! So,gonna watch Hannah Montana(the movie) with Iffah n Miraah.. cnt wait! miley's e best...(juz miley,nt hannah!) bored,im so bored....

2009-06-01T18:02:00.000-07:00

told mom that i really dun wan to tok to her
i really dun lyk toking to ppl that dun respect me..

I want to see you, I want to see you
Im waiting for you by that sea
My feelings for you
Whether its the morning, the afternoon, or the evening
I want to see you, you are my heaven

To end this crap,let's not tok to each other.aite?
pls&thnk u...

...

2009-06-01T07:29:00.000-07:00

maybe i will nvr b hu i was b4
mayb i dun even noe her anymore
mayb hu i am today ain't so far from yesterday
cn i find a way to b every part of me

now i just dunno
hu i really m
hw it's gonna b
is there sumthg that i cnt c?
so i try..
it'll take time...

is there sumtg that i cnt c?

would any1 understand?
would i understand

2009-06-01T07:03:00.000-07:00

I GET EASILY PISSED NOWADAYS!
OH GOSH!
I HATE MY SISTER!
SHE SAID FUCK RITE INFRONT OF MY FACE!
BITCH BITCH BITCH!
IVE NVR SAID THOSE WORDS RITE TO HER FACE!
HATE HER TO E CORE!
I HOPE SHE GETS MARRIED N WILL MOVE FAR2 aWAy!
I HATE HER!
i always gv her $10 last time for her taxi fare!
BITCH SCOLDING ME BCOZ OF HER JOB!
hey!ive gt NDP!
urs is in aircon
mine is in e fucking retarded sun!
u gt that,bitch?

WAT E FUCK DID I DO TO U???
U DUN HV TO SAY THOSE THGS!
im really pissed!
pissed off!
NEXT TIME,I DUN CARE!
ill juz say wtv that i hv in mind
i cnt take it anymore

I TRY SO HARD TO AVOID HER!
SHE ALWAYS FINDS HER WAY TO IRRITATE ME!
so yeah,8 yrs different.i=u tink u cn win me??
n ive seen better sisters!
ure e worst ive seen!
i cn get along wot bro...
so y cnt u juz leave me alone u fucking babi buto ass rottened up BITCH?
GTH!suck up to mum!suck up to dad!
wtv u do,go ahead
juz dun fucking tok to me !
FUCK IM PISSED....so so pissed
i feel lyk breaking anythg that's near me....
i already threw all my bags n anythg that was near me!
~GD!uve gotten ur diploma!NOW GO AWAY!

tired.

2009-06-01T05:50:00.000-07:00

i had a hard time today
i feel really2 lyk ..im melting..
i thought e stress was over
e NDP thgy is really making me feel lyk crap
i didnt sign up for this.cnt blieve i hv to go through it
i was sick juz now..my condition got worse
tears came running down
my head started to get heavier by the second.
i reached home at 8.30pm
i didnt even open my mouth...i cudnt tok...
..................................................................................................

enough2..yay!bought e hat with miraah today
i love e colour.so,i dun care.ahaha
.................................................................
if u dare call me a minah,ill nvr let u off
u stay whr u r until u give up

no,mayb ill juz let u n ur 2 frenz disturb me until u guy hv had enough...
yeah,im a gd girl
...............................................................................................

Eva called today...DURING NDP training
n told me to cum early
but c first,i gt NDP training
haha..

Went out in e morning!

2009-05-31T02:44:00.001-07:00

LOL!
hello!
im lyk so hyper today
went out wit Siti(she brought her bf...haha.they r both so shy!)n Aisyah
we went out for a really2 late breakfast at 11.40++
haha...i was late.SORRY!
Let's c...
Then,they disturbed me.
Saying that im really frenly n lyk to talk nowadays!
n they said that laz time i used to b quiet,shy n always nt talking
hahaaa...wtv la...
bcoz i gt so much to talk about wat!
laz time,there wasnt anythg interesting to talk about
ugh...didnt take pics!such a waste!
they look e same
i tink im e 1 hu's changing
Btw,how cud u expect me to hv that many bfs???
omg,u guys!i m not lyk laz time.
i dun count those as relationships now...!HAHA..
So,ya...from now on,take it as i oni hv TWO official ex..coz they were e longest!
N no,i didnt love them at all..
juz fooling around ...AH!REGRET2!

i feel lyk playing wit my hair again!
i wanna curl n straighten them...lyk laz time!
should i curl my hair?it'll b short lyk hell!
okok,ill curl it n then take a pic of it!
OKOK??haha..
Im goin out to buy e hat tmrw!
cnt take it any longer!
MUST HAVE IT!!!!!
~LOVE~

wat is wrong wit me?
y m i so into hair rite now?
they r rite,I AM RANDOM!
wtv,im still sick.

i dun hv anythg to tok about..
umm,done!

2009-05-30T21:44:00.000-07:00

hmm,did i mention bout MY NEW PRECIOUS LAPTOP???
hehehe...i dunno,my dad bought for me!white in colour!
white guitar,white laptop!hahaha
anw,not gonna show off...
hmm,cn u blieve that i didnt eat anythg yesterday except for those 8 tiny biscuits??
haha...DIET SUCCESS!

shud i cut my hair?hmm,n do u noe wat i dreamt about today?
i dreamt that sum1 told me to look at myself in e mirror n pull my hair frm e bck to e front.if i do that,sumthg will cum out from e mirror..crappy dream rite?i guess,i hv nth to dream about..
im nt sure whether i did wat i was told or not..e dream was so random.
haha,thx to yaya!omg!telling me ghost stories!well,sumtimes i ask for those stories!LOL!

NDP rehearsals this june hols
6-8 june chalet with cuzzies(dad's side)

Should i?

2009-05-30T07:15:00.000-07:00

she does thgs her own way.that's wat i lyk about her.(plus,she's hot 8D)
..nvr giving up..

today,even though i was sick i came to sch bcoz of Nat:) ok lah,in e morning i was lyk so sick until e teacher suspected that sumthg's wrong throughout,i was okay kept coughing..nvm2! i came bcoz i promised to cum!:) wat shud i do? i dun trust myself i dun trust any of them if i text them,it feels so wrong! i wasnt being faithful! So,it's better to b frenz only right??? no more than that until i trust myself to trust a guy.. ill wait i dun tink im matured enough now... shud wait when e time cums...

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2009-05-29T05:03:00.000-07:00

I never needed you to be strong
I never needed you for pointing out my wrongs
I never needed pain, I never needed strain
My love for you is strong enough you should have known
I never needed you for judgment
I never needed you to question what I spend
I never ask for help
I take care of myself
I dont why you think you got a hold on me

And its a little late for conversations
There isnt anything for you to say
And my eyes hurt, hands shiver
So look at me and listen to me because

I dont want to stay another minute
I dont want you to say a single word
Hush hush
Hush hush
There is no other way, I get the final say
Because
I dont want to, do this any longer
I dont want you, theres nothing left to say
Hush hush
Hush hush
Ive already spoken, our love is broken
Baby hush hush

I never needed your corrections
On everything from how I act to what I say
I never needed words I never needed hurts
I never needed you to be there everyday
Im sorry for the way I let go
From everything I wanted when you came along
But I am never beaten, broken not defeated
I know next to you is not where I belong

And its a little late for explanations
There isnt anything that you can do
And my eyes hurt, hands shiver
So you will listen when I say baby

I dont want to stay another minute
I dont want you to say a single word
Hush hush
Hush hush
There is no other way, I get the final say
Because
I dont want to do this any longer
I dont want you theres nothing left to say
Hush hush
Hush hush
Ive already spoken, our love is broken
Baby hush hush

No more words
No more lies
No more crying

No more pain
No more hurt
No more trying

I dont want to stay another minute
I dont want you to say a single word
Hush hush
Hush hush
There is no other way, I get the final say
Because
I dont want to, do this any longer
I dont want you, theres nothing left to say
Hush hush
Hush hush
Ive already spoken, our love is broken
Baby hush hush

~for my..( )..whom i saw today...:(
2 yrs not seeing you....n u suddenly appear..
I'm Sorry...i really mean it.

i don't love you...

oh crap

2009-05-29T03:57:00.000-07:00

ohmyGee!
help me...haha
im suppose to take panadol
but im scared to swallow it!
yes,ive nvr taken big pills
im also scared of e tiny ones
wat if it's stuck?????
OMG!
e pill is damn big!
eehhh...alamakk...
my mom cut it into two
but it's still so big!
i hate being sick!
hopefully my sis gets this....HURr!
~scared arr..

.............................................................................
Do u noe wat happened?
i took e half pill....
then,i chew it into pieces!LOL!
then,i swallowed it!
THEN,E lost bitch kick e charger for e laptop!
*blacks out*
evil...then,she didnt say sorry or anythg!
i scream at her
(n i heard my engine-rosak voice..OMGEE!)
then,she was lyk....
''cn u shut up?''
cn u imagine how pissed i was???
She's killing me inside out!
......................................................................................
i dun wan any1 to control me!
frenz r jus frenz not queens,im nt ur slave
a sister is juz a sister.shud shut up at all times
a dad is juz sum1 for support
Mum is juz an example of my future self
a bro is juz a bro...

im sick

2009-05-29T02:29:00.000-07:00

im currently very3 sick
i dunno
my sister gt e flu now...
she works at e airport which is kinda scary for me now
n im having fever...(37.6)
im so sick!
juz now went to art museum
i cudnt even tok to my frenz!
my face was lyk ''*...*''
i heard sumthg..i blieve her...i tink thr r such thgs in this world...esp in THAT particular plc..
but i kept quiet...act lyk i dunno it's thr...
nth happened...
i was very weak when we came bck to sch
n i slept throughout e journey when taking 87 n 222..
im really tired n sick!i cnt speak.i cnt drink!my throat hurts to e core!
n im nt allowed to go near baby
still hv to do e-learning
HELP ME SUMBODY
*dad promised to buy me laptop tmrw...im sick..n tmrw gt NDP ...we'll c how..
i dun feel lyk goin but hv to...
DAMN...

im damn tired of this

2009-05-28T05:54:00.000-07:00

hey.
Sch was alrite
Took e prize n went off stage
Crap.ppl say i walk lyk stone.hahaha.with no expression on my face.

Weii!dun anyhw call me baby when im certainly NOT ur baby!idiotic B*stard!

Erm,,went home wit iffah,miraah,nat n they all

i hv soar throat!(m i spelling this correctly)
BCOZ OF THAT B*tch!(my sister)
cnt wait for her to move out.
she's always trying to pick a fight!
when im quiet n dun feel lyk talking to her
she'll b all rude nall bitchy towards me sumhw(she has her way)
n then ill get pissed.n ill juz tell her 'diam bole tk,huh?becok sey!'
she shud quickly get herself a boyfren!
n hope she'll get married soon!
i dun want to c her face.
retarded bitch!
lyk she tinks she's all that!SO WAT IF URE OLDER THAN ME???DOESN'T MEAN U NOE EVERYTHG RITE????
i fought wit her that day n all these words came out.
n my dad was lyk scolding us..
PPShh...wtv!
i noe i wasn't e 1 hu wanted a fight!
she's so...ugh!
always has her way to get all bitchy n make sum1 piss!
n when i get pissed with her.ill b rude to every1 in e house.
She's so mean!
22yrs old,u cn find a house!get married or sumthg!
jeez!kate nk kahwin org kaye!QUICK LA!

*u dun mean anythg to me.even though i tok to u,doesn't mean i lyk u.
ur comments about me n others r offensive enough.i dun tink i shud lyk u at all

im pissed

2009-05-27T01:10:00.000-07:00

hmm,
results :

eng-B4
Malay-C6
Maths-A1
Sci-B4
History-A2
Lit-B4
DnT-A2
Art-A2

Top 9/39
m i satisfied?...yes..
L1R4-11
L1R5-15
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Today was lyk ...Hell...
in both ways
im tired,i was forced to get tanned,i heard sum1 gossiping...
i felt lyk i wanted to faint.my brain was heated up by e sun.it bcame heavy
ppl were worried.but i was fine!
im gettin more n more pissed nowadays....Know y?
i feel lyk u r meant to hurt others.
u tok...tok lyk sum Queen..
But do u noe it's hurtful??
do u know it's offensive
uve hurt ppl
ive seen them gettin hurt
i hate that attitude of urs
yeah,ure exactly lyk wat u say bout others
it bounces bck to u!
Y CNT U NT GOSSIP OR COMMENT ON OTHERS FOR JUZ 1 FUCKIN DAY????
yeah,i didnt speak to u nor look at u
bcoz i dun wan to..
u make me feel lyk shit!
Therefore,we need not speak to each other since i hv no time to listen to ur gossips n i hv no time to spare...
done.end of e day!
im still worried for my frenz..they do nt noe that ure hurting them!
ive kept quiet all along.
i shud juz kip quiet rite?
when they ask i NEED to lie
So they wont get hurt.
im tired.im pissed.it's been goin on lyk these for a few days already.
How m i suppose to live my life to e fullest when i hv troubled thoughts in my head!
jogged wit Iffah today
we did great.
im proud of us.
:)
Nvr treat frenz lyk a toy to play wit!

2009-05-26T04:58:00.000-07:00

i was bored.so i took this crappy pic!hahaha...enjoy commenting about it.i dun wan to hear ur comments!AHAhAha

here i m... sitting on my bed feeling giddy .... i cried... noe y? BCOZ I WATCHED THIS SAD INTERVIEW!!!!he's so sensitive...:) OMG!nthg cn make me cry except for e thgs i c on internet n television! i dunno y im lyk that i dun cry for ppl in my life instead i cry bcoz of music videos,movies,interviews...n anythg on tv im serious. it's better this way.... none of my frenz have seen me cry!(i tink there's sumthg wrong wit my english!LOL!) ok,im weird. so wat?

i'm not being me

2009-05-26T04:07:00.000-07:00

Tanned in sun
went to hall..
few teachers asked whether i was ok or not...
there was nth wrong wit me..juz sat there quietly n they started askin me crap
Bad mood(lyk always)
saw him
saw her
went out wit yaya...
we acted lyk drunk ppl
we disturbed others
i dared her to point at a Non-hot guy n say'syifa3!he's hot!)
she didnt do it properly
so i did an example
syifa:*points at guy,smoking*yaya!he's hot!
yaya:*OmG!expression*
she told me e guy was shocked that i pointed randomly at him
Hey!i was bored!
nex thg i noe..
yaya*point at guy walking sexily!*syifa!he's sexy!
n e guy was lyk 'euh...'
HAHAHA!
we were bored...
im tired.
will call iffah later..as promised:)
~pissed.mad.frustrated.irritated,annoyed.sick of it!!~

Let it go...

2009-05-25T02:40:00.001-07:00

that's it,im tired of looking or paying attention to u.
So,,,today..i felt lyk i was gonna collapse or sumthg!
coz of e NDP rehearsal..in e sun..
lyk,wth..miraah told me my face turned pale!
lyk, PPL BUILT SHELTERED PLACES IN SINGAPORE rite?
y nt go to that plc ???y muz we get tanned ????
omg!my skin is already dark enough!
So,anw...i wasn't moody in e morning
sumthg happened,i gt pissed
Don't show me attitude when e weather is hot!(*toots* will cum out frm my mouth at any time!)
i was trying so hard to b playful(played wit nat n miraah!hahaha...that kinda stopped me frm b'ing moody!)
e whether nowadays is really ...
i guess we cud blame ourselves.
called iffah...chat3!she's 1 of e most important ppl!
~SyifaaaMiraah has made their cumbck!

today went bad

2009-05-24T03:43:00.000-07:00

AAHHH!
went to east coast
babies everywhr
gt this chinese women n her naked 5 mnths old chubby bby ..they were helping me by entertaining me!WAHAHA!
ermm....it was damn hot n i gt pissed with mum,dad n sis
ate junk !
UGH!
after that had lunch at a turkish(?) restaurant...
ermm,,,then went to check out cars..dad's buying 1 more car for my sis n bro..
then,switch our car to mercedes(?)..at my dad's boss house
that's it!BYE!

2009-05-23T03:13:00.000-07:00

talk all u want.
i dun even care on whether i shud lyk u or nt...
juz 1 piece of advice,dun drag urself too far,u might lose all ur frenz..

Haiyo..stop ur comments on others.
once in awhile ,sure...but u gossip too much.
sometimes,even if it's nt about me...it's really stressful to hear.
haiz,, plz b kind to them
others cn get totally offended..

i dunno wat to do

2009-05-22T23:47:00.000-07:00

hey...erm,,didnt go out wit yaya,..pushed to tuesday instead..
aahh...he told me to juz layan...
but it feels so...wrong..
Single for too long..perhaps...
ugh!
Don't take me for granted,im not for sale.

im seriously goin on a diet
i dun wan to eat junk food anymore..
that's it!
im gonna strt running til i lose at least 5 kg...

Ive been very bz lately..
goin to restaurants...family dinner.
Celebrations..
i dunno how much we've already spent.HAIYO!
Tomorrow...goin to e beach wit my cuzinz..(it's gonna b hot there!)
set up tents sum more
mum's bdae..
So,mayb at night go dinner again
im always nt free on sundays!
therefore,i hate sundays...cnt hang out wit frenz!n my dad's home on sundays...
i smell lyk baby milk..no y?coz e baby vomit on me...
AISH...

RAndom

2009-05-22T20:15:00.001-07:00

''Yo yo yo!''-miraah!hahhaa
erm,,woke up at 8...
erm,,watched 'full house'
e story is damn funny n nice uh...
erm...halfway i realised that this actress has fake/plastic boobs..
haha...didnt realize...how small were her boobs??coz,i didnt relize they were fake(coz they looked nt so big..m i saying this rite?well,u noe wat i mean,hopefully)
i hv nth against plastics...but u noe,it's juz weird having plastics on ur body..
but i guess it's a normal everyday thg now...so,haha..
erm..goin out wit frenz..go bugis..shoppin!
til then,

2009-05-22T03:03:00.000-07:00

BUGIS

Gothic + Emo..(but we're nt)

HEHEHE

HAHAHA

Hurt but healing

Syifa n Miraah(we've moved on)

SYIFA N IFFAH(she's always there to calm me down)

AMALINA CANDID!

TRUSTED PEOPLE(lyana,syifa,yaya)

SYIFA

i tink we shud juz b brave wit hu we r..inside out.
n nt let ppl tink we're scared of them,orelse...these ppl wud juz use us.
So,if u wanna bhave lyk that towards me,then i tink there's no point talking to u.
Coz,ppl tend to dislyk u bcoz u tink ure all that...
Im tired of having to act lyk ure really sumthg 'great'.truth is,ure nt anythg at all.ure juz e same..
So,hate me,hate me.
Lyk me,lyk me...
Juzt don't use me,bitch.

PISSED

2009-05-21T06:38:00.000-07:00

IM PISSED.MAD.FRUSTRATED.IRRITATED.
msg:SHUT E HELL UP N F*CK SOMEBODY B4 U START SPITTING OUT CRAPPISH GOSSIPS ABOUT ME..
U REALLY LOVE TALKING BHIND PPL,DO U?
WELL,LET ME TELL U THIS.....U TINK EVERY1 LOVES U??PLS,THEY R ONI WIT U BCOZ U KIP SHOWING UR FACE TO THEM...N WANT THEIR ATTENTION.TINK I DIDN'T C THIS??PLZ....STOP TALKING BOUT OTHERS N LOOK AT URSELF CAREFULLY IN E MIRROR FIRST...FROM THAT,I TINK U CAN MANAGE TO SHUT URSELF UP!

Sick Of Them

2009-05-21T03:51:00.001-07:00

I was fuckin pissed off today!
noe y?
bcoz...I freakin hate guys that kip on texting me!
plz lah eh!i dun hv time to lyn u peeps!
having already 7 ex's at e age of 14 is bad enough!
HAVING MY NO. PASSED AROUND?
r u guys freakin insane?????HUH?????!!!!!
dun msg me anymore lah!
i dun hv e time!
kalau handsome tkpe jgak!
lyk seriously....i dunno how u gt my no.!i dun tink my frenz wud giv it to u peepz!!
haa!guess wat?now,bcoz of this...ppl tink im a player!but im so not!
after i broke up wit him...i realised how IDIOTIC n STUPID i was.i wasn't even in love wit him!
handsome tu handsome ah!attitude lyk shit how sia?
I hv guy frens...they noe they r hot...n i they use girls!
Not all,im juz saying some!a few...well,yeah!

results?
maths(85) A1
english(60+)B3
sci(58)c5
history(76)A1
Lit-(A2)
MALAY---48(FAIL!)
yeah,my mly...hahaha

hv to celebrate mum's bdae on sun!
my babies-being-born-at-e-same-time cuz's r gonna b there too...
i swear,ill b lyk totally quiet!coz i dunno how to talk to them...
n even if i do talk to them...or they tok to me...i wont lyk it!
so,yeah...haha...silent-syifa.

GONNA B HAVING THOSE BULL-CRAP REHEARSALS DURING JUNE HOLS!
ARGGHHH!

im gonna remain single until streaming is over!
single for a few months now....i m handling it pretty well..
found my name written in sci lab..._ _ _ _ 'heart' SYIFA(e rumour that had spread to e whole sch!wtv..)

uuhhh...wtv lah eh!

even though i dun wan a guy...i dunno y i miss him e most!

i told my bro i had a lot of scandals n ex...he wasn't surprised!L-O-L!
i still hate my sister..still nt talking to her.dad scolded me yesterday...about diz...n i just stood there..
they label me as e rebeliuos 1..
HAHAHA...
but hey,i cn produce gd results for them...

Im So Confused

2009-05-19T02:51:00.000-07:00

hey..currently watching make up videos on youtube...
all of them hv gt sumthg to do wit e eye..eye make up!
...i was bored...
demi lovato's eye shadow make up thgy is pretty awesome!

i dont noe hu to trust anymore.
if i go to different ppl...
it's gonna b hard
i dun trust others now...
well,yeah....i tell them e thgs that rnt that important
i dun wan to tell them stories
bcoz all i noe is im gonna get betrayed
n it's hard...coz...
if u gossip bout sum1 but u act exactly lyk that sum1...
then,wat kind of a bitch r u...rite?
so,frm now on..i shall kip my mouth shut
n im already sick of all gossips..
i dun nid to hear ppl gossiping bout others
coz,u might juzt descrbe bout urself.
i dun mind u gossiping to others.
but dun talk to me bout all e shitts.
ive been thru it...
ppl hv betrayed me

n if i spend time with different ppl
n u wanna hate me
then b it
wat kind of a fren r u if u dun want me to spend time wit sum1 u hate?
a controlling 1?
dun gimme diz shitt!
get it?
i may seem lyk i dun mind..lyk i dun care
but i do care.
u tink ure all that,but ure nt.
juz dun gimme diz shit
it's e same as u HATING THAT PERSON
but u still spend time wit her
DO i get mad about diz?aha,no!( dun even care! )
so shut e fuck up n try to understand me!
u say all e negative thgs bout her
but do u noe ure exactly lyk that????

*im not emo!

This is not meant to hurt any1...

ANW,,,sch was okay
early2 saw miraah
Shocked
coz she was rite infront of my face
n she's damn tall.
then,iffah came in
i promised her on e phone that i will talk to her in e morning
coz,lately,every1's been saying that im very quiet in e morning,lyk in a bad mood(but im nt)
n hyper in e afternoon
So,i talk to her..haha
then,erm???
i dunno wat happened...i 4gt!
oh ya!went shopping wit ina n iffah!
then,i went home
at bedok inter...i was alone
i saw this nenek calling a child's name loudly(i dunno,lost mayb)
ermm...then,when i turn around
this DAMN gd looking guy was rite infront of my face,smiling
i didnt smile bck
coz i was shocked....
he was lyk passing thru me...
then,i juz kept walking.end of story.lol
i turn to look bck,he was gone.DAMN!
hahahaha....nvrm.he look so familiar!
haiyo!1 of my bro's fren,mayb?
ah,dun care...sick of guys...
hahaha

Driveway

2009-05-16T23:04:00.000-07:00

After 12
not so well wont pretend its too soon
to tell whats round this bend

no disgrace
about faith
anything not dared to chace
you down again

You know nothing hurts like losing
when you know its really gone
except for the pain
of choosing to hold too long

i tried it your way
but ive got nothing to show
its been the same, same
and the story's getting old

so i guess the driveway
will be the end of the road
for us its too late
let the credits start to roll

lot to say
but not today
let the radio break the silence
as we drive

a kiss goodbye
not this time
cant remember what about this song
i ever liked

you know nothing hurts like losing
when you know im already gone
except for the pain of choosing to hold too long

i tried it your way
but ive got nothing to show
its been the same, same
and the story's getting old

so i guess the driveway
will be the end of the road
for us its too late
let the credits start to roll

i thought maybe we were gettin somewhere
but we were still no where at all
i watched your tail lights fading
I try, but i too will fall
I remember What it feels like
To know love
And have it taken away
I can't think of what
I've learned right now
But I'll thanking you someday

i tried it your way
but ive got nothing to show
its been the same, same
and the story's getting old

so i guess the driveway
will be the end of the road
for us its too late
let the credits start to roll
let the credits start to roll
so i guess the dirveway
will be the end of the road
(be the end of the road)

tired n pissed

2009-05-16T06:49:00.000-07:00

im pissed
mad
fed up.
sick of ppl.
sick of her
sick of him
sick of them
sick of their attitude
sick of my attitude
i wont talk
u need not talk to me
shall nvr look at each other
always remain quiet
always to myself
i try ...
so hard to overcome
it's difficult
it's pressurizing me to e core.
i shall remain silent
not showing anythg
nvr telling them anythg
always e unimportant crappy thgs cums out
u dun noe me.
i might reveal it
but then,gossips wil surround me
so,all i do is kip quiet
always doing that!
i dun lyk it..talking to ppl about myself
i dun lyk it...when u talk to me
Don't talk to me about stupid thgs
shut up n tell others bout ur shitty stories.
dun cum to me.
dun use me.
im sorry for using u.
all i do is juz smile n talk bck
juz so u wont feel hurt
but now...im nt gonna b lyk that anymore
therefore,im sorry.
*e changes u see in me...it was there all along
i was just TRYING HARD not to b rude...*
mayb,it's true wat my aunt said
...i do not noe how to communicate to ppl
or respect them...
i tot i was juz shy.
yeah,wat u said is true....i realize it now...
there's no point hiding.
so,hate me....
lyk me....
i dun care.
all i want u to noe is,im nt e person u tot u knew.

...Four walls...
..losing trust..

These four walls
They whisper to me
They know a secret
I knew they would not keep
Didn't take long for the room to fill with trust
And these four walls came down around us

It must have been something that send me out of my head
With the words so radical
And not what I meant
Now I wait for a break in the silence 'cause it's all that you left
Just me and these four walls again

It's hard now to let you be
I won't make excuses
I've made my peace
Didn't take long for me to lose the trust
'Cause these four walls were not strong enough
ooooh
It must have been something that send me out of my head
With the words so radical
And not what I meant
Now I wait for a break in the silence 'cause it's all that you left
Just me and these four walls again

Yeah, it's difficult
Watching us fade
Knowing it's all my fault
My mistake
Yeah, it's difficult
Letting you down
Knowing it's all my fault
You're not around

It must have been something that send me out of my head
With the words so radical
And not what I meant
Now I wait for a break in the silence 'cause it's all that you left
Just me and these four walls again
Yeah
These four walls again

.Shut Up n Stay Away.

living life to e fullest

2009-05-16T04:16:00.000-07:00

errrmmm...0.0 ....hie!8D
so....im tired.haha.
went out wit today.
watched movie.
FUN!hahaha.....bought clothes!(always do)
haha...took pics....
but...thg is,i cnt upload pics...sad!
ill get it frm miraah...
so,i went home...saw my bro...
we talk2..phew!no awkward moment at all!heheee!thought it'll b awkward.
weirdest thg is,i reached home...had to hold baby for awhile
my bro went into my rm n told me whether i want to eat or not coz he made me sumthg....
n i was lyk,'tk abes?'n he said''mkn semue ah,saket perut!''
but i noe,he's trying to make me fat!ugh!so,ate it ...haha...
wtv lah....ah...cnt believe he's already 18...ppl grow so fast.......my sister is 22...im lyk,14...YEAH!IM YOUNG!but it's sad...i hate it when ppl grow n age!they're not fun anymore...
i tink,if my sis gets married....ill feel abit weird...n that ill miss her when she has her own family!
i mean lyk,ppssst!not lyk i miss her now...i dislyk her now...she tinks she's all dat but she's so not...she doesnt noe EVERYTHG?rite?
haha....i always avoid talking to her n my dad...coz,they cn easily make u angry n pissed...n treat u lyk sum 5 yr old child...
it's easier to shut up n kip thgs to urself..it's better.
but i dunno y i lyk to talk to my bro..i guess,it's coz he's always very quiet.
hated him last time....OMG,crazy!he irritates me to e core!
so,i guess u cn say,im not close wit any of them....haha.

It's my life,not urs

2009-05-15T04:11:00.000-07:00

Hell-o!
i...dunno whr to bgin
sch was ok today..
-btw,to that person,dun anyhw spread rumors that i hate u...bcoz b4 that,i didnt even noe u..n i didnt even care bout u n ur life...so,juz kip ur mouth shut n cum to me b4 u start spitting out nonsense!ok???thnk u.(:

hmmm,2.4!oh damn me!i gt 18.07...i dunno?laz yr i gt 2nd position(15.02)now...hehe!:)
but passed!
erm,i m currently learning how to play 'lala land''the climb''bottom of e ocean' n 'day by day' on guitar...gosh!'day by day' is e most difficult!my fingers r damn small!cnt reach!LOL!but,argh!demi lovato's song is very easy!miley cyrus 'the climb'i noe how to play but due to my tinnie fingies i cn oni play it slowly!it takes time....but ill soon learn it!my dad wanted me to buy e guitar bk n told me to go get myself a tutor...
since when does my dad care about all diz?haha!
errmm,,,wat else?
hmmm...
i feel lyk i wanna learn piano first b4 i attempt on playing guitar(lyk really playing it,nt lyk now8D...hehe..)
i spoke to my mum n she said 'ok' but i muz really learn how to play it.....
so,i dunno...i guess,we'll c...im kinda lazy...so..ya,i dunno!
my backbone is killing me!noe y?i have to carry e baby for lyk an hour juz now coz mum was busy!haiz!haha...i dun mind...but man!did he gain all those pouns!
haha.....so,ppl ask me how cum i dun whr tudong lyk my sister...
bcoz,i noe..if i whr tudong im not goin to whr it properly.nt that i dun respect my religion ah...but,let me explore first!n c whether i want to wear it or not!
n besides,it doesnt matter whether that sum1 wears tudong or not....bcoz...
u cn hv a sickening shit attitude but wear 1...n it'll juz embarrass islam
A FEW(nt all) tudong girls r juz pathetic!hugging mats while wearing tudong?eh,hello!tk perlu nk show off yg kau ade mataer!
SL-ing?lyk,WTF ah...lyk,if ure gonna b lyk that...might as well dun wear 1...!haiz!
n they say ppl lyk me dun respect our religion?
ah...wtv..u noe..
do u understand me now illa?..haha...(:
ok,im done!bye!

RANDOM

2009-05-13T05:50:00.000-07:00

My broken heart like a wave
My shaken heart like a wind
My heart vanished like smoke
It can't be removed like a tattoo
I sigh deeply as if a ground is going to cave in
Only dusts are piled up in my mind(say goodbye)
Yeah, I thought I wouldn't be able to live even one day without you
But somehow I managed to live on (longer) than I thought
You don't answer anything as I cry out "I miss you"
I hope for a vain expectation but now it's useless
What is it about that person next to you, did he make you cry?
Dear can you even see me, did you forget completely?
I am worried, I feel anxiety because I can't get close nor try to talk to you
I spend long nights by myself, erasing my thoughts a thousand times
Don't look back and leave
Don't find me again and live (on)
Because I have no regrets from loving you, take only the good memories
I can bear it in some wayI can stand in some way
You should be happy if you are like this
I become dull day by day (eh eh eh eh)
Oh girl I cry, cryYou're my all, say goodbye...
If we pass by each other on the street
Act like you didn't see me and go the way you were walking to
If you keep thinking about our past memories
I might go look for you secretly
Always be happy with him, (so)
I won't ever get a different mind
Even smallest regret won't be left out ever
Please live well as if I should feel jealous
You should always be like that bright sky, like that white cloud
Yes, you should always smile like that as if nothing happened
I hope your heart fees relieved
Please forget about me and live (on)
Those tears will dry completely
As time passes by
It would've hurt less if we didn't meet at all (mm)
Hope you will bury our promise of being together forever baby
I pray for you
Oh girl I cry, cryYou're my all, say goodbye, bye
Oh my love don't lie, lie
You're my heart, say goodbye

BULGGOGI

2009-05-10T18:29:00.000-07:00

HEYLOoooow!
so,yesterday...
was mother's day..
just when i tot i cud hv fun
dad destroyed e day!pissed man!
then,i kept quiet,nt looking at him
staring at ppl wit an expression like 'im pissed off at sum1 rite nw,u look at me...ill stare at u!'
then,i stare at this girl at starbucks,cause she looked at me
i dunno,we stared for lyk minutes.then she looked away!
sister brought us to a korean restaurant!(my sister is too crazy over koreans..im nt kidding)
restaurant's name was bulggogi,at changi airport
the food was awesome...i ate kimchi..(which lightened me up)
even tho i dun really lyk veggie,i tink e kimchi was awesome!
we went n eat...n then got koreans there too..
e business man looked lyk he's gonna kill sum1
haha.scary face.
so,im done...goin out latr wit them...

WORD UP!(lol)

2009-05-10T01:22:00.000-07:00

helloOOooo!so,im still watchin' crap' on e comp!
so recently,ppl kip tokin to me bout porn...errr,...im not interested in watchin it..
so...erm...SssHHH!

i totally 4got that today is mother's day man!
i nvr said anythg to my mum...in fact,didnt even tok much to her...
was in my room...keepin quiet,minding my own biz to avoid nagging
then,i asked my dad(i talked to him,finally!)whether we're goin out for dinner to celebrate
n yurp...we're goin to a restaurant...(lyk always!)..haha...
i wonder which restaurant...we always go to diff ones....

ill start typing random thgs now...(heee)

So,im waiting for e laptop!
my sis n bro hv their own !
Good grades=laptop!
c e link?
*wishing*

So,ppl keep telling me that i seem lyk a WILD CHILD!
but my attitude is e opposite!(haha)
damn!
but sum,they say it as if they want to purposely hurt me....lyk totally straight forward.
lyk diz
person'syifa kau step emo bodoh!stop it sia'
syifa'dot[?]dot[?]dot'
ppl tend to misunderstand me n tink im rude(bcoz i dun tok much to ppl i dun noe)...don't judge e bk by its cover
even my aunt told my mum ...i didnt evn do anythg to her..so random!

u noe wat?i cnt wait to get to poly!i dunno y!it seemed rather easy for my bro!lyk,no stress stuff at all.quick!2 more yrs!

im done..saying stuff..haha
*gonna go out tmrw
*gonna eat tons of food tmrw!(haha)

~i lyk them boys that's hard to get!~(lyrics)

HAHA!stayed home.....

2009-05-09T07:04:00.000-07:00

HEY!
HAHA!heee!low!hell-o-hell!
im goin nuts,rnt i?
haha...chatted wit YAYA on e phone...she's funny!kept giggling in every phncall!
she's e best when im bored at home!
So i was busy watchin crap on e comp...basically,my crap is 'simply watchin hot guys'
LOL!

aaahhh!im so worried bout my results....i dunno....im juz afraid of marks...
n mum's gonna buy me a laptop if i pass everythg...i usually do,but there;s pressure now.so,it's different.

I tink my dad tinks i dun want to tok to him.hahaha..:(
i do want to...but i dunno wat to tok about..
if he asks me questions...ill always ans e same thg 'ah''tk''bagi controller''da''blom'
haha...n my mum told me that im TOTALLY different frm my bro n sis!
but she doesnt noe wat they do....Hakz!
lyk me,i show wat i do..
i dun hide it...
well,enough tokin bou em'...
but all they nid to noe is that i do love them!n im thankful to hv them as my parents...

haha....im currently watchin sumthg on internet which is super awesum n cute!
hehe!(babies dancing!)wahahaha!

awesum ey?

*That person:thnk god ur gone!u made my life miserable!u cheater,liar n ure such an asshole for making me fall for u!WTH!y was i so stupid?i shud b blaming myself for falling for a jerk LYK U!
but, admit it...it's partly ur fault too!u shudn't hv done 'that' to me noeing that u already hv HER as ur back-up!or was i e back-up?HOI!i dun hv time to b a back-up!guys lyk u ....r juz...*******************@#$%^&*!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Piss off!
i haven't told anyone bout u...ur name shud nvr b pronounced infront of my frens!
Thnk god ive realised that i was an idiot for falling for u!
been there...nvr goin bck!....if i meet any other guy hu is juz lyk u,i swear..there WILL b a hole in their ASS!
Bye,~a~s~s~hole!

i shud b happy living in this world!
ok im done!bye!

TODAY WAS....unexpected

2009-05-08T05:10:00.000-07:00

HEY!Helloooo!
today was great but halfway it was lyk....'we R So DEAD'
wanna noe y ?cnt tel u!*syifaa escapes!*-clue!no la...not me..but i was nearly dead.
haiz..e tcher...haiyo!
took pics wit ina n iffah!hehe!
So..i keep tinking that i stil nid to study but...WTH!exams r over...but it feels as if it's stil on...
wtv,u noe...
just now i sat under e voideck n hung out...we sat ON E FLOOR!HAHA!
wth..but im not a minah,lyk seriously!i was juz hanging with ina n her frens!she ask me n iffah to tag along for awhile!haha....we were crazy!laughing lyk mad!
So...im gonna start playing my guitar,hanging wit them n e gals in sch...'them' r e ping yi's !
So,No 2.4 cause it rained!weeee!
iffah n ina ask me to go out wit them juz now...wahahahaa!at 4++
go tampines 1,century square n e mall!3 plces
tikaa n shakirin followed to!:)
then,this guy text me..n tikaa sent e replies...
she's trying to make me seem irritating so that he wont text me anymore...
Furthermore,he cnt b liking more than 1 gal!(im gonna stop now)
but i dun hate him...
ahh!today was fun...didnt hang wit frens for lyk ages!

*monday-goin sumwhr!not sure whr!im planning...ill always plan laz minute !haha...
will b asking them,if i hv e mood to go out!
If i dun have the mood,they shud noe that ill b infront of e comp...

*Friendships r important!*i understand it now...since ive been thru stuff!hehe!
i wanna b equal to every1...so if i dun tok to u peeps,dun tink i hate u...
i dun hold on to grudges!aite?
S.Y.I.F.A
~dun trust or rush love!~

Im Back Baby!:)

2009-05-07T02:28:00.000-07:00

Hell-ooooOooo!
haha..so,syifa's back!
exams r finally over
eng was ...hmmm...
maths...Okok!
sci...i died halfway...brain stopped working!
malay(no nid to ask...my malay is crappy !even my frenz say im lyk a kindergarten child speaking malay!so that's y i prefer eng)...
Lit...5 poems...okok
history..i dunno...okok..?
So...im blogging again bcoz...ppl kept telling me to update..
happy?haha...
so e swine flu/H1N1 thgy,huh?my advice...stay clean!haha....
i wont hv time to post any pics(lazy)
so..ive been goin crazy over korean grps..(cant tell u hu they r)haha...
only e talented ones..e common boy band grps r ...ugh...
hmmmm,,,but dun worry!i stil M a FAN OF my ang moh's!no matter wat...haha
ugh...i kip tinking bout my results...getting them on tues most probably!
haiz!tmrw gt e running thg around e sch(starts wit e letter Na...wtv)
ya,recently im so nt in e mood to run..
i was more active laz year..haha
so,ya...ive blogged!
im not gonna be telling e whole story of wat's happening in my daily life..
haha..juz wanted to make it clear..cause ppl hu dun have blogs tend to tink that we want ppl to noe bout our lives!but it's so not true...rite,bloggers?juz telling e tiny bits of our story for FUN rite?haha..

if i had one wish boy,
i wish u next to me
n it cud be in summer,fall or spring boy,
cause u make my heart sing
i wanna be my heart,my soul,my love to you oh baby yeah
cause everyday im not with you
im missing you lyk crazy
i live for you to love me(love me)
hold me(hold me)
touch me(touch me)
in my soul
never let it go
oh e love we share
no one compares to u
oh ill nvr let u go
cause i really love u so
oh ill..ill nvr let u go...

i love u~

2009-04-03T01:48:00.000-07:00

bored...

k,supposed to be blogging about art ...hort park thgy...

and about keith haring

yaya,lyana(2B) and syifa

3 girls not paying FULL attention on wat they're suppose to b doin...HAHA!

and..we cant really tok crap...

but...wth...

HMM...HORT PARK?that was what?lyk a month++ ago?

hmm...we drew plants n animals that we saw...

try to combine e pics n re-draw another...alien-lyk creature(i dunno.haha.but mine looked lyk alien)

i drew ..mostly plants

n a fish

combined the =....alien-weirdo

n keith haring?

i admire his work...yup,it's true...

he's talented.even tho im not that interested in his kind of artwork

im sumhow inspired by some of them....

hmmm....

Thinking of you

2009-03-31T07:03:00.000-07:00

Fucking Retard Day!

2009-03-27T01:52:00.001-07:00

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naziff waved!haha....i smile!that boy is seriously funny!
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-suspected somethg
bad mood all the way
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Got fucked off
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-go outside sch
all the sec 4's n 3's were there..
saw them,wanted to run away but cudn't
this sec 4 guy(idiot)
go 'mmmmm!mmmmmm!'at me!
hurr!then,the other one touch my nose.
wth...
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BLABLABLAHHHH!
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i told them to talk 2 her.
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Chatted with a sec 1 girl named farhana
frenly...haha.eng-speaking...very gd!i loike!i loike it a lot!
i guess u cnt juz judge a person..
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everythg went wrong today.
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-helped them.
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-went home.done.
fullstop.

wont b blogging much coz ill b either too fed up or too lazy

*To Them...sorry that u guys have to see me behave in such a manner today.
im so sorry!!but...it will happen again.but i won't involve u girls in it.
ill keep it to myself.

............................................................................................HAH!iffah called n told me to watch KBS!e korean guy... Ss501 member was on!gosh,yeah..im currently into korean stuff thgy?wtv...but it'll stop.sooner or later.haha

Fucking Retard Day!

2009-03-27T01:52:00.000-07:00

Caught

2009-03-26T02:41:00.000-07:00

today was alright
slept for a few secs during sci...
hmm....nth much happened!
LOL!yest i chatted with naziff
i told him that he's very 'sombong'
in sch.coz i smiled at him,he nvr smile bck-.-
Then,today he swheet at me n waved
n i waved bck lyk semangat2!haha.that boy's so funny!
so...after sch...went under block 128(nt sure)
weren't doin anythg
nex thg i noe,we chatted with a policeman.
my first time gettin caught...doing nth.
Tikaa-nt that nervous at all.
Ina-okok
Syifa-okok(coz i noe i didnt do anythg.haha)
Liyana-NERVOUS N WAS WORRYING LYK HELL!SO OBVY
Nat-kinda..nt so...okok.
the policeman was quite funny...shocking...
told us nt to hang around under voideck again.fine...ill listen.im innocent,rite?haha
then...that's it.e other 1 scared me abit.
mum found out..told me'first n last!'
Fineeee....hopefully,mum wont tell dad.HOPEFULLY.
hmmm...TMRW NO TEST!yay!stressed out coz gt to many test.
that's y i gt time to hang around.
Liyana is probably stil worrying...i told her nth will happen.first time nth will happen rite??
well...yetserday was worse...
sec 3 guys n girls gathered around outside class juz coz this guy wanted my no.
so in order to get out.i had to give him my no.
anw...wtv...
k,that's about it!

2009-03-21T06:53:00.000-07:00

1) Eva
2) Yasmin
3) Iffah
4) Atiyah
5) Liyana
6) Natasha
7) Hafiz(my bro)
8) Amalina
9) Yaya
10) Amirah
11) Kai Siong
12) Xin hui
13)Joan
14) Haikal
15) Kai siong
16) Diana
17) Yuda
18) Jing Yuan
19) Kian Xiong
20) Naziff

1) How did you know 14?[haikal]
-during ccm n MT class

2)What would you do if you never meet 1?
-i'd b a very boring cousin

3)What if 9 and 20 date each other?[yaya n naziff]
-don't care.

4) Will 6 and 17 date?[natasha n yuda]
-wth...no!

5) Describe 3.[iffah]
-loves korean dramas n very sweet.

6) Is 8 attractive?[amalina]
-yes..very.

7) Describe 7.[hafiz,bro]
-boring at times.

8) Do you know any of 12's family members?[xin hui]
-no.

9) What if 18 confess to you?[jing yuan]
-hey!she's not a lesbian!

10) What language does 15 speaks?[Kai Siong]
-chinese,english

11) Who's going out with 9?[yaya]
-no one.i tink she prefers being single.

12) How old is 16?[Diana]
-13

13) When did you last speak to 13?[jjoan]
-yesterday.msn

14) Who's 14 fav singer?[haikal]
-joe jonas..i tink

15) Would you ever date 4?[atiyah]
-wat???no!we're not lesbians!

16) Is 2 attractive? [yasmin]
-YES!tall lyk a supermodel

17) Is 19 single?[kian xiong]
-tink so

18)What's 10 last name?[amirah]
-cn't say.

19) School of 3?[iffah]
-BNSS

20) Where does 6 lives?[natasha]
-tampines.in e prison plc

21) What is the fav thing of 5?[liyana]
-her playtoy(u noe wat i mean!)

22) When is 11's bdae?[kai siong]
-idk.ill ask him

Now choose 10 ppl to continue the chain..
-amirah
-eva
-liyana
-natasha
-kai siong
-yaya
-nanaaa
-yuda
-whoever!

Hmm...

2009-03-20T09:55:00.000-07:00

pics taken frm beach

wth am i doing???

in toilet with fringe clipped up....woah!that's a first!

syifa:amek gmbr ngn aku!
nat:jgn kacau akulah syifa!!!the sun is irritating today
syifa:alaa...skjp je!
Nat:fine...
HAHA!!!

Hey!
so,didnt blog yesterday
Let me tell you wat happened on thurs
hmm....went to bdok inte at 12?
Natasha brought her twin sisters
they...scared me...
LOL!no,what im trying to say is..
i was okay with them tagging along
but then,one of them decided
they wanted to go home
then,sumthg happened
it shocked me...
haha....
i dunno which is which!LOL!
but,u noe...i dun mind.
hmm...let's c...
nat went POSB?i tink so.
then,we went pasir ris
i rented my own bike
while nat n miraah shared
Liyana didnt want to rent anythg
...smart...lol.
she prefers walking.
hmm...then,we cycled til we reached e 'haunted plc'
wtv....hmm...
it was the exact plc whr this yr sec 2 camp
had to go in
the night confidence challenge crap
we were FORCED to go inside in pairs
the spooky plc
n those trainers dressed up as ghosts
fcuking retards.
i hated that camp
the most worst camp ever!
the trainers might say it's fun
but...u noe...Gth first then u tel me whether it's fun or not!
n freaked the hell out of me.
i ran lyk crazy when e fake 'pon' came after me
n the bouncing ghost.
Fucked up ppl
they tink it's fun to scare us.
i shud hv thrown that bottle at the trainer's face
idiotic fools!
..oh yeah,im stil pissed!..
so,anw...went in there
remembered everythg that happened n straight away
went out...
if those trainers didnt scare me..
i would have continued goin in further!
then,returned those bikes
n went to the beach
Took pics..
then,i went home with miraah.

HOVERED
Studying while suffering
is kinda hard to deal with
Because everytime i see you
i feel so confuse
Frustrated and irritated
But at the same time excited
Knowing that it will take awhile
to get over you completely
is also the hardest thing,really
Completely hovered by all the clouds
How do i find my way out??

lately

2009-03-18T18:38:00.000-07:00

iffah's house!
In the BUS

voideck

NDP pics

HEY!
didnt blog for awhile
sorry!
been bz ..hanging out wit frenz lately
now i hv to catch up wit all my assignments
Today is my laz hang out
n THAT's IT!
so...monday n tuesday is e NDP dance thgy
went home at 7
wednesday went to iffah's house wit liyana
Took pics...lyk tons of pics
went home at6++
erm...cuz came wit baby!
haha!
CUTE!
erm...today's outing is gonna b at pasir ris beach.CYCLING BABY!
sum weren't free
gt problems sum more...misunderstanding
but both of them r ok with each other now!
YAY!
so ..monday n tuesday bad mood.it was lyk hell
cudn't even tok to any1
i swear,i cudnt even open my mouth
until liyana cud feel the tension
coz i kept staring at ppl without smiling
n my face was damn pissed!!!!
LOL!liyana smiled at me n i juz stared at her
with my pissed off face!
n she was lyk 'OMG...'
after that,was okay!
so yeah,that's about it....
will blog soon!

LOST
i'm so lost
i was so blind
i should have seen it coming before
knowing that it's all gone
No matter how fond
i am of you
i noe i can't get a hold on you
Will never
Should never have
Usually
U look
I glance
U stare
I stare
and will always look elsewhere
mostly at the ground
staring blankly at it
I rarely see you notice me
As im always afraid to look at you
Isn't that obvious enough?
When will i finally realize
that this is happening?
Time can chase me
But i can't chase time
So what am i suppose to so now?
Catching up with you is hard enough
Time is too fast for me to catch up
Im loosing it
When will i finally have the guts to reveal
all of this??
When will you finally realize????

2009-03-14T23:39:00.000-07:00

THIS VIDEO IS lyk damn funny!
Watch it starting from 0:20 secs!
Gosh....

2009-03-14T20:17:00.000-07:00

Pics taken yesterday

miss my old fringe!!!

Hey guys!
So yest's outing??
hmm....
wore blue shirt with
'glam girls go shopping'
written on it..
So..i was late
took bus 222 reached bedok inter at 1.50
met miraah n yanaa.
they followed me go cut my fringe
Yanaa told me to cut it bangs.
so yeah,did it...
hmmm....
i miss my old fringe!
nvm..
went to nat's
her house is like prison!
gt 'prison' written on e board sum more!
haha!
must climb e irritating hill
to get to her new house.
Then,went katong wtv
to buy nat's PE shirt
then,went parkway
eat at KFC
nat had to go..SOB2!
then,laz minute yanaa,nat n miraah
bought ice cream
i didnt.too full frm e KFC..a lot of fats in that chicken!LOL!
so..sent natasha to bus stop
b4 that saw a bag(i wanna buy it!)
hmmm...nat went off
we took 401..waited for lyk 45 mins
went to East coast park!
drew on e sand.
took pics
then,went at 7
we went to e bus stop
waited for such a long time
until i tok crap to my frenz
then,bus came!
sat bhind!
N OMG!
there was this couple
sitting bside me
then,sumhow e girl grab e guys face
n kissed him
i didnt look at them
but i c can it happening
n i had to stop the laughter
miraah n yanaa were already
giggling..
i was lyk smiling at my phone
trying to stop e laughter that was about to cum out!
luckily,i managed.
so,went home wit Yanaa......

2009-03-13T20:49:00.001-07:00

ENJOY!Love this song!

Today

2009-03-12T23:58:00.000-07:00

LIYANA'S

hehe..was bored

LIYANA Playing with my fringe
told me to cut bangs.....
hmmm...???

LIYANA N SYIFA's HANG OUT!!!

BABY HAIDIL(:

Today...
Hmm?
Tired....almost fell asleep in class during HIST
first period.OMG!it was so boring.
I didnt noe wat to do.
gosh...
tired coz i used e comp yest to chat wit Naziff..
after that,added liyana...hehe!
Naziff frenly!he has e SoNotInnocent face..
But still frenly.
Chat til 11+??
ya,k...played guitar for awhile til 12+..
Til my eyes couldnt stand it..
My eyes were so high!
HAHAHA!
so...went sch
took bus 87
Oh ya,been sick lately
so in e morning i came didnt tok to any1
i tink sum of them tot i hate them
coz when they asked me question
i was lyk 'ah''ntah'
haha!
then,nth much happened actually
PE ran around sch 5 times.
Sweating lyk i produce water.
so...sum were quite slow
then,SUM of us planned to do kallang wave when e group reached the finishing line!
So,we did it.noisily..haha!
but kinda fun
Kai Siong,Carolyn n Ina were super active!LOL!
so,with e sweaty hair i went to cnteen.
n as usual,friday didnt eat much.
hmm...then,clean classrm,wipe table
raining.wore my WHITE hoodie!
HAHA!
then,i went hm
wit nat n liyana
NAT PLAYED WITH E RAIN WATER!!!
SHE STEP2 on e water until
they hit my face
CM BUDAK KECIK(lyk lil' kids!)
Then,Yanaa n me had to stop
a lot of times.
Baby Lion(nat) katekn!
took 60
saw nat at another bus stop
i looked down ...she looked up
both smile.LOL!*apehal ngn budak tu?*
so..went home
Baby Haidil is here.
HE IS SO CUTE
He tried to talk..
lyk cute ah!hahaha!
lyk trying to talk but cudn't.
Juz 5 mnths or 4?dunno!
JUZ SO CUTE!!!ADORABLE!!!
im nt gd at carrying babies.
First of all,im scared.
But u noe.Tried it anw...
Then,cn.
But uncmfortable.
Haha...

gt results:not satisfied
Eng:B4
Maths:A1
SCI:B3
His:B3
Art:B3
Malay:C5
DnT:B4
LIT:B4
haha.yeah.

Definition of LOVE

Weak
Too weak to realize
That all this things are happening
To people around us
What if...
You fall in love
But the person
On the other side
Didn't even realize a single thing?
' i <3 u'
Is is just a desperate call for love?
When will i finally have the guts to show you??
Am i just afraid of getting myself hurt
again?

HILARIOUS..watch til e end

2009-03-12T23:24:00.000-07:00

Today.haha

2009-03-11T03:45:00.000-07:00

Today was awesome.
Baby Haidil will b coming to my house...
starting frm today onwards
stayed bck today wit nat n yanaa
they go gym
i waited outside.haha.
then,Yanaa went Leo zclub(wth...)
so Nat n Me went home.
She took bus 8 n i took bus 60
reached Chai chee
Went home
Played with Haidil
HE IS SO CUTE!
Obvy,when he's older he'll b so Handsome/hot
haha.his skin is so white.whiter than mine.
so ya.gt Maths quiz n Eng test(summary) today.
haha.

Hidden?
Have you ever been hurt by a friend?
but the person who's really at fault
is not your friend
but the person you love
the person you love is falling in love
with your friend
you know it's true
because it's just too obvious
You know you're hurting inside
but you really don't want to
or intend to hurt your friend
It's all just too much to handle,right?

So,what would you do?

So,today

2009-03-10T08:02:00.000-07:00

Today went pleasantly awesome...:)
Hmmm....let's c..
first period maths.
second was SCI Ignite!
My group is lyk e oni group doing the gym activity.
So yeah,did it in aircon!muahahahaha!
too bad for the other groups!*blueking*
so Ms katijah released us late for recess
so Ina,Miraah,Iffah,Nat,Yanaa n me were pissed
n since she released us 15 minutes late
we went to class late..
Especially Miraah,Yanaa,Nat n me!HAHA!
Ina n Iffah were sumhow in e class...hmmm...
So when i went in e class
every1 changed plc...
then,every whispered 'sit anywhr u lyk!'
N so i sat with Miraah...
Teacher suspect sumthg diff
n told every1 to get out of the classrm.
Fine...
Then,rearranged the sitting arrangement.
Much more awesome!sat bside Ina,Miraah n Nat
n infront of me was iffah n infront of me on e other side was Yanaa..
Haha.
so passed my sci.
so next was English lesson.
passed e test..WON BRYAN BY juz 1 mark
but u noe..being me,couldn't resist doing the 'hand thg!'HAHA!!!
so...went to liyana's plc..
n credits for the changes on my blog goes to
LIYANA!...love you,babe!n thx again!
erm..so ya,7pm went home...haha..

Wat IF...
When you find somebody
You'll love the person deeply
BUT
What if that certain someone
doesn't want to reflect back the feelings?
What if all your friends disturb you
and the person finds out the truth that was
so long hidden..
yeah,what IF...

ya,k...im writing crap...
But still,there r some hidden meanings rite??

Until i find out e truth.

2009-03-07T23:06:00.001-08:00

until i find out the truth
ill never let go of you
just looking at u
makes me feel lyk there's at least some peace

Knowing that it'll take a while to get over you
or to forget you
Is lyk the most hardest quest
it's lyk a journey
that i have to start all over again
coz it has its own way to repeat again

Cycle of love is the hardest isn't it?
when you know there's never an end to it

-SyifaaLove-Shortstuff:)

feeling high all e time:)

2009-03-07T03:45:00.000-08:00

Yanaa n SyifaaLove

In toilet syifa....feat.NatashaBaby Lion

Nat's adek n Nat(baby lion)

Yanaa(camera is rite infront of ur face!)Miraah n SyifaaLove

ET home...SyifaaLove n Miraah

SyifaaLove n Miraah

Yanaa,Miraah n SyifaaLove

hahaha!nat(baby lion)miraah n SyifaaLove

reflection....

hey!
so today was lyk a nightmare turned into funfair.
i went shopping with Bryan,Xin hui n Miraah..
But b4 dat i tot it was e MOST WORST DAY of my life!
it was already 12 so i changed.
i took 1/2 an hour to decide wat to wear
last minute choice:
purple top
Dark blue skinny jeans
a green mixed purple cap
a black white sweater(stripe2)
So searching for my eyeliner..couldnt find it!FRUSTRATING!
was already 12.45
search2...miraah text me saying she was goin out in 5 minutes time!
Finally!found e eyeliner in my sch wallet/purse(i dunno!dun care!)
guess wat happened?
well..while i was trying to open e zipper
'zzzzeeettttccckkkk!'
was spoiled!LYK WTH!!!
then,when while i was putting e eyeliner bck into e wallet
i noticed sumthg was missing
EZ-LINK CARD!AAAHH!!
coundn't find it 2!
search n search.
so used sister's card.
couldn't care less.
So it was already 1.20
supposed to mit miraah at 1pm
ALAMAKK!!!
then i reached bus stop late!
then when i tapped e card at e thg(?)
it says sumthg2..
i juz ignored!LOL!
then,e uncle was lyk 'oioi!'
n i was lyk 'wat?'
then he says'ur card nt enough'
i said'ya,so?'*bad mood*
'pay coins lah!'
then i say'ouh.okok!'
then i payed..every1 stare!WTH!pierce their eyes then they noe!
so told Miraah in bus that today is lyk e worst day!
she juz laugh3!
met Xin hui.haha.wonder how long she waited!SORRY XIN HUI!
then,went bedok inter,waited for Bryan.
then went shopping for e thgs that we nid to buy(sch stuff.dun ask)
So after we finish shopping at sheng siong
we sat.stare2.
then suddenly,Natasha,Liyana,Nic,nat's adek n Danish appear!
so after they bought stuff.we stil didn't want to go home.
2 early.
so,miraah,liyana,nat n nat's adek went Lib(crowded!went out)
then,i bought jacket(hoodie)white in color.
straight away wore it!
nice!n it was raining.so yeah.warm.
ermmm...then...i cannot remember.
took 229 n sent natasha home.
left me n liyana in bus.
gt headache coz gt this guy bside me,
stinks
erm,so ya.
gt home at 7++
FOUND MY EZ-LINK CARD!
WTH...

Nth much

2009-03-06T04:58:00.000-08:00

above-me!!!hehe!

pics that are taken for fun

today?
nth much.
ran around sch 3 times.
tired.it's friday today...
so i didnt eat..
after i do PE i dun lyk to eat...
later ill either vomit or faint.
Ina realized 2day that every friday i nvr eat.
haha
DnT listened to music..
put earpiece in my uni...
haha..
ppl talk to me i nvr listen
miraah n i were wasting our time hanging out at random places.
Today....yaya asked me to follow her to mit yuda.
i oni showed her hu he is...
then i walked away.
coz..i dunno.uncomfortable.
ate at BK...then went home.
im kind of addicted to poems or mayb very 'emo2' sentences.....y?i dunno.live wit it.
how do i survive knowing that you don't even know me,
do you?
maybe you were looking
But u weren't really noticing
I saw you today
You looked at me
i looked at you
and looked down
at the ground
Looking at where you were standing
the distance between us
But didn't have the guts to even smile at you
you stare
i stare
u look
i stare at the ground
Driven to your hotness?
i don't think so.
When will you finally realize?
When will i finally have the guts to tell you?
When will i be able to stop looking at you?
When will i make it obvious?
Why do i have to suffer?
Why do i need love?
I tried to ignore you
I tried to lie to myself that i don't even know who you are
But with all the effort,
i still couldn't..

When will it stop???

Do i feel better?
not really.

Today

2009-03-04T04:03:00.002-08:00

Today was lyk any other day.
Bored,study...eat(didnt finish e food!always lyk that!dunno y!)..study...staybck...watch softball boys.
ILoveIt when e coach is angry!*furious*
OH YA!
DID I MENTION BOUT E CRAPPIEST THG THAT'S GOIN ON IN MY LIFE RITE NOW??
IF U WANNA NOE,,,,
THEN,MY SCH GT SELECTED TO PERFORM FOR NDP N I HATE IT!
IT'S COMPULSORY!
LYK OMG!STREAMING THIS YR,N THEY R DOING THIS THG!For wat?i noe...2 pressurize us!
I M NT INTERESTED FYI!
HURRRRRRRRR!!!!
eh!sum more in e open area whr there is sun!
i dun want my skin to get darker!it's already getting more n more darker!
N i dun want to get skin cancer!
im wearing a cap!
n if e t'chers dun lyk it...then,im sorry!i dun want any skin diseases!my sister told me to wear a cap!
m HEY!im wearing 1!
moving on.....
stayed bck.
went hm with iffah.
when 2 bus stop.
when bus 60 came
i laugh2 wit iffah...
then,my badge thgy which has 'get closer,love'written on it ..fell off!n e bus was cuming.
iffah n me were lyk'OMG!EH!EH!AHH!'
then,after e bus went infront,i took e badge n went in e bus.
haha
so,yeah.that's it...for today.
currently chatting with liyana,syahmi,yaya n nat.

Today

2009-03-04T04:03:00.001-08:00

Finally.

2009-03-03T01:36:00.001-08:00

Hey Guys!:)
So,been busy this past few days.
project
learn how to play guitar
chat wit frenz on phone...(blabla...blablabla!)
So,i was so pissed off ystrday
Y?
Coz this idiotic(loser btw)boy threw paper at me.
they lyk to disturb girls.the other boy face.face lyk squirrel,short2.
So..i hit him,the loser.n both fed up!!
THEY STARTED IT FIRST!I DUN EVEN NOE THEIR NAMES!
they r my malay classmates.
N then,suddenly after sch e idiotic go n hit me with e damn solid bag.
I was so pissed at them...i wanted to throw SHIT at their faces.
2 idiotic bimbos!
i was holdin a paint brush(with paint on it)
was tinking of throwing it at him
But scared he'll throw it bck!LOL!
but nvm...they're juz useless losers.
Disturb girls...nvr disturb guys.
i heard that they lyk to disturb:
Ina
Iffah
Amirah
Natasha
Liyana
Afni
many more.
Pissed!went hm pissed!sleep pissed!after i slept...Bad Mood.so i emo2 here n there.
.
.
.
So anw...today?
Gossips everywhr.
Sec 1 girl SHOWED off her pierced tongue.
keep in safe in ur tongue,ppl ask then show.
HAIKAL HOOTTT!called me ''syifa hot!''...haiz!
so i called him hotstuff!LOL!
Stayed in cnteen for awhile.
after 20 mins went outside sch accommpany natasha buy e long2 sweet.
then,went bck 2 sch.
Got headache!want to sleep!raining!freaking cold!
then after we went canteen
2.30 went up n did e oral test.
nervous...I went n speak english lyk full ENGLISH!sleng'ish til e end.
the conversation gt A LOT OF QUESTIONS.i mentioned stupid+funny thgs.
then,waited for Amirah n Ina with Iffah!
Amirah bought french fries then took 60 went inter.took 222 went HOME.
abg showed attitude
i greeted him n he ignored n said 'shut e door!'
then he went inside n banged e bedrm door.
dunno wats wrong.
haizzz....
ended up here
blogging
friendstering
facebooking(?)
MSN(appear offline)
that's about it..
*obviously still pissed wit e freakin jerk!

Today n Yesterday...

2009-02-27T21:42:00.000-08:00

Hey guys..
so,hvnt been blogging much lately.
Tired.So anw...
yesterday,nth much happened.
while Miraah n i were otw 2 e bus stop,
we were tokin bout ms katijah.
i told her"sumbody wrote on my sci lab table dat she is a toad!"
then,we laugh2.then,we talked bout her sum more n both started laughing lyk crazy!
Then...omg!paiseh2!(dunno e real spelling!)
miraah told me to shut up
then,when i turned around Haikal n Syahmi were rite behind us.
they were probably tinking "2 crazy girls!maniacs.."
then..we juz laugh3.then,out of nowhr.gt voice saying
"jln punyelah slow!"i turned bhind n i was syahmi!LOL!
then,Miraah n i purposely STOPPED!then,all 4 stopped
hihi.cari psl aje kiteorg.haha.
then,took bus 60.
twirled round n round.
until reach chai chee.
bought ice cream(yum yum..)
went hm..online.chat3!
learned hw to play '6 months' n 'wake me up when september ends' on my precious guitar.haha
then..5.30 went bck to sch.parent meeting.
so far so gd.no complains.
innocent.
then at 7.30pm gt talk at hall about goin 2 sec 3
n wat kind of results they want 2 c.
went hm at 9pm.
frenz told me that my eyes look high.emo2
but it's naturally lyk that.wat to do?
I LOVE MY EYES!LOL!
online
eat
watch tv
online
play guitar
watched youtube show
play guitar
until 1 or 2am.haha
today...gonna study maths until tmr nite.
to prepare for monday's maths test.
STRESS!monday gt mt test!
haiz.weak in malay.nvm,try my best on monday.
wat else?ok ya,that's it!

view n tag!alrite??

My Precious Guitar!

2009-02-25T03:39:00.000-08:00

the following pics r taken for fun!

HAHA!natasha muscular!

toilet

Yesterday? too tired to blog.
went hist learning journey.went hm at 6,sleep.haha.
Took pics in bus.
haha.

Back to e future,bought the guitar!my precious guitar..White color!haha.
kk...today..nth much.compre test.found out that they fought!haha.
guy business i guess.hmmm...k,that's it.BYE!